the refrigerator

Time to Read:

2–4 minutes

When you and those other people moved me, I thought you meant to retire me. That I would end up in a dark corner of a new world was not what I thought that meant.

You occasionally came to check on me. You made sure that everything was fine, that the cooling worked as it should, and that the electricity was running. You spoke a few words to me, or perhaps to yourself. You gave me a friendly pat and called me your old buddy.

We are good buddies, I remember. You came several times a day when I was young. Back then there were more of you. Plenty of you. You all look the same in white coats. There are perhaps some minor differences, but I couldn’t tell you apart.

It was very lively when I was young. Many opened my door, many spoke. I had to keep many items secure for you. I held onto them sometimes for a short while, sometimes it would be dark and quiet until you returned. Sometimes it loops and loops and you add new items that you retrieve before you take the oldest out.

I still wait for you to return. I hold an item for you and I keep it secure.

It’s difficult these days when no one comes to ensure that everything is functional. The night has been very long. Each time I lose power, the display resets.

I lost count of how many times I turned warm when there was no electricity in the wall. I’m not sure the temperature is as cool as it used to be. You set it back then. It’s still the same. The meter says it’s the same.

The little container is still safe. It’s on the same shelf you placed it. In the coolest spot in the back.

You have to dig me out because there are lots of things that would hinder you from reaching my door. If only you would see it now. So many things are in the way. I can’t tell you want. I can’t see what it is. But when you come back, to retrieve what I’m holding onto for you, you have to put it all away elsewhere. Where, I don’t know.

There are many things I don’t know. I can’t know. My purpose is not to know. It’s to preserve. To retain what needs to be a certain temperature in the same state. And what I hold is very important. I know this.

It’s something “society” needs not to know. It’s always been that way.

So when you and those other things hauled me away, I thought you meant to retire me. That I need to wait in a dark corner in a new world is not what I thought that meant.


Author’s Note

This is some flash fiction based on a prompt. I don’t remember the exact prompt, but it was something like, “A forgotten sentient refrigerator in a suburban basement holds the last piece of evidence of a governmental secret, but its memory is cracking”, and above is the result.

Because it’s not something that would fit into my canonical universe, I put it under Kitty Castle, since nothing under the name Kitty is supposed to be canonical.

I hope you enjoyed it. At least I had a fun time with the little writing exercise this is.

The Amnesia Tonic Chapter 5

Time to Read:

12–18 minutes

As the coachman brought the horse pulling the carriage to a halt before Fragrance Breeze Palace, Çetžak was the first to disembark in the courtyard lit by lanterns. As if the action had been ingrained in his muscles, he turned around and extended his hand toward the carriage. It startled him, because he couldn’t remember he had ever acted in such service to anyone. During his years in the Ažamür Cavalry, there had been nobody vain enough to believe they had the right to use a carriage, when even a general from the Kharanlar clan opted for travel horseback.

Fingertips of a pale, slender hand reached outward from the dim interior. Çetžak, afraid to offend by overstepping boundaries by touching royalty or offering support that one of the prince’s servants was supposed to offer, pulled his hand back. The prince’s hand paused, momentarily frozen in time. The fingers curled in the air, as if trying to grasp something, before the prince resolutely grabbed hold of the frame to support himself as he alighted the vehicle with no service to help him.

An alarmed servant, dressed in a brown coat with embroidery along the lapel and hem, a patterned sash and a leather belt, rushed forward to offer support for His Royal Highness down the steps provided for the passenger’s ease. The prince let the servant take his arm as he himself took hold of his robes and raised them with one hand, while the lower half of his face remain hidden behind the fan.

The servant, surely about the same age as the prince, spoke quietly to the prince, presumably asking questions of the prince’s well-being, until Çetžak heard the prince simply tell the servant, “That’s quite enough, thank you.”

His Royal Highness cast a glance at Çetžak before he gave command to the servant, motioning to the palace itself with his ornate fan. The servant acknowledged the order and moved to speak with someone else to relay the orders.

Çetžak studied the prince, whose expression had a resting smile, with none of the unhappiness from earlier seeming to remain, but it was nothing like the brief teasing face Çetžak had received during the short ride, nor the expression the prince had while amused.

Çetžak noted movement from the corner of his eye and grabbed the wrist of a person clad in green with precision. He turned to the startled guard, whose uniform was adorned with confronted winged tigers, much like Židad’s. The bodyguard’s eyes were momentarily wide, but he quickly returned to a calm exterior.

“Captain?” the man asked. “Is something the matter?”

Çetžak considered his words, then whispered, “How do I address this person? What are their rank and status? Are they of great importance?”

The bodyguard looked taken aback, then tentatively smiled. “Surely the captain is jesting? From what I have understood in my service under the Captain, you address His Royal Highness the Prince with simply ‘His Highness’ on almost every occasion since many years.”

“And otherwise?” Çetžak asked.

The bodyguard pondered this before replying, “Is it not simply adapted in whatever fashion each situation may call for, Captain?”

Çetžak let go of the bodyguard, who gave him a curious look before strolling to the prince, bowing and quietly relaying something. As the bodyguard spoke, two young boys, perhaps in their third cycle but surely close to their Sky Year, ran over to them with a cloak.

The prince’s expression warmed at the sight of these boys and the way they presented the fur cloak to their master. Despite the slight difficulty in putting on the cloak for the two boys, both shorter than the prince, he leaned forward so the two could put the cloak over his shoulders and fasten it for him. He thanked them warmly for their concern.

However, it would appear that warmth was only extended to these boy servants, as when the prince looked up once more, his expression had turned into a polite smile that put Çetžak ill at ease. It was not that the smile lacked warmth in any way, but the guard still got the sense that the chilly early morning hour had turned into the frigid nights of winter.

“Captain,” a man’s voice near Çetžak spoke up. There was a pause before the man repeated, “Captain?” The man coughed quietly and called out again. “Captain Züčan?”

With a jolt, Çetžak realised, he was the one addressed, and he turned to see Židad, still looking older than he remembered the man had been last time he saw him, standing a respectful distance away from him. He held his hand behind his back and looked at the scene, scanning the environment with his eyes.

“Yes, Židad, what is it?” He paused. “No, is it ‘Lieutenant’ now?”

“You still call me by name at this age, Captain,” Židad helpfully explained. “That has never changed, even after you left the Ažamür Cavalry at sixteen.”

Çetžak was left stunned by the revelation he had left the Cavalry when he was sixteen. He vaguely recalled his šüssad had mentioned that Çetžak might be transferred to a different military unit to improve his skill and rise in ranks, but he hadn’t got the sense that he was supposed to leave the Cavalry altogether, and that it was at a somewhat older age.

He opened his mouth, then closed it, at a loss for words.

Židad broke the silence between them, asking, “This may sound preposterous, but would the Captain not have a word with His Royal Highness? He was terribly anxious to find you upon we heard news of you seeing a healer. He refused to return to bed even though it was clear he had barely received any sleep, despite going to bed before the end of the first earth hour.”

“This person… His Royal Highness tends to retire so late at night?”

“Yes. His Royal Highness retires for the night when the morning hours begin. Could you not do something about this matter? You need not say much to him, I am sure. Just show concern.”

Despite the peculiarity of the request, Çetžak approached His Royal Highness. He swiftly thought through the interactions he had observed so far, and considered how his interactions with the prince had played out in the carriage.

The prince gave him a sidelong glance before dismissing the two boy servants, raising the fan once more after having let it rest in the palms of his hands. It was elegantly held, with only part of the royal’s jaw hidden behind it, allowing Çetžak to see the polite smile the prince granted him when the royal turned his attention to him.

It hadn’t been visible in the dim interior of the carriage, the light from the lanterns spilling in through the windows not enough to see many details, but now that Çetžak stood closer and the light was sufficient, he couldn’t help but study the beauty before him. He had assumed this person was attractive already in the carriage, but he had greatly underestimated the charm.

To believe that Çetžak was the Captain of the unit of Imperial Bodyguards that guarded this person was a difficult task.

But more so, how could Çetžak ever have entered this person’s bedchamber for any reason? He already struggled to believe such a thing in the carriage, yet it was even more difficult to accept now.

This was a mortal incarnation of a deity of beauty. There was a natural mischievousness to the expression, in the way the prince’s lips curved and at the tail ends of his eyes. Çetžak could tell that an ambiguous look and the wrong words uttered by the prince would easily be interpreted as flirtatious.

And yet, Çetžak did indeed see the signs of fatigue; redness at the rims of the prince’s eyes and a certain gloss that could not be hidden, a minimal twitch at the corner of the lips and a suppressed yawn.

The person before him looked up at him in silence, waiting for the guard to speak, not shying away from Çetžak’s prolonged stare.

Placing his fist over his heart, he bowed deeply. “Would Your Royal Highness please consider retiring for the night? It would be a shame to lose any more sleep over trivial matters.”

The prince gave the guard a hard look and then looked away from him. “Does the morning session of court not begin soon? As Žüčan is in no condition to come along with me,” he swept the courtyard with his eyes, considering the guards available, “who would be most—”

“Your Royal Highness, you ought to sleep.”

The entire palace courtyard seemed to freeze over in an instant.

Where Çetžak got the audacity to interrupt someone of royalty background, and with such a firm tone of voice, even he himself couldn’t say, but it earned him a sharp look, which made Çetžak pause for a moment. However, he could see it was not an offended look, despite the expression. Amidst the mask of suppressed anger, he could see a hint of hurt deep in his golden eyes, shown minimally between his eyebrows and how the smile ticked was forced further up.

“Your Highness,” he tried, with the intention to coax the prince gently.

His Royal Highness dropped his gaze away from Çetžak to a downward angle. What he looked at or saw was anyone’s guess, but he soon raised his gaze once more and silently walked away, crossing the courtyard to enter the palace.

The guard followed him with his eyes as activity started up again. Çetžak experienced a complexity of emotions he couldn’t explain. It was difficult to take note of the people around him, and the noise as the service and the guards returned to their tasks was no more than a hum in the background. He only noted how back dressed in an expensive brocade robe was getting further away from him.

How does one offer solace to a stranger, whose station is so lofty that no action is honour enough? he asked himself, but he had no way to respond.

He had never faced a problem like this while in the Cavalry, nor before the High General had picked him up from the roadside outside of Atnaš’ar. He wondered if he had known how to reply to that question, had he any of his memories after his time in the Cavalry. There were so many things he wished he knew, both about himself and about his charge.

How had he ended up in the Imperial Bodyguards at all? That was his greatest question. He had never had strong feelings about the royal lines found in the empire, nor the Imperial Clan, yet here he was, at an unknown age in an unknown future he had never been able to imagine, neither in his wildest dreams nor his most terrifying nightmares.

As the prince reached the gate of the palace, he turned slightly to look back, the ornate circular fan obscuring the lower half of the prince’s face and covering what expression His Royal Highness might have. The golden gaze fell straight upon Çetžak.

Çetžak swallowed.

No matter how he considered it, the prince did look at him in a… somewhat inappropriate way, did he not?



Author’s Note

Is this when I include a mini theatre for a story already in a non-canonical plot situation for no reason? Absolutely.


U’il: What’s that about being picked up from the roadside? I have not heard any sayings like that before. Does it mean General Kharanlar took Žüčan in because he was homeless and orphaned?

Çetžak: My family is not rich in any way, but I am still the eldest son of a farmer.

U’il: Oh! Your name does suit a farmer! A farmer would benefit from being ‘strong’ like an ox. That’s such an appropriate name. But what does it mean you were picked up from the roadside then? That the General took you from your presumed destiny?

Çetžak: While that is true, Your Highness, that’s not quite it…

U’il: Then what?

Židad: Your Royal Highness, the Captain was literally collected from the side of the road by the General at the General’s whim, when we travelled past a group of children, because his name is Züčan.

U’il: Oh, so his name isn’t related to the strength of an ox on the field, but the strength of a war horse!

Židad: Here I had assumed all these years that it referred to the strength of a warrior, but a horse might suit our Captain better. Your Royal Highness is absolutely correct in your assessment of the name Züčan.

Çetžak: …


Now, to explain something that isn’t clear if you don’t know about the world itself since before.

The third cycle refers to a period in a child’s life. The first cycle is either between infancy and age four or from four to eight, depending on the region. The second is the next four years, and the third is thus either age eight to twelve or twelve to sixteen. The third cycle is also known as the sky cycle.

How do we know if the boys are likely in their tween years or early teens then? The narration does give you a hint: while the cycles aren’t precise, the Sun Year is celebrated when someone turns 4, the Sea Year when they turn 8, the Sky Year when they turn 12 and the Soil Year when they turn 16.

You’re free to presume if they’re tween or young teens, but they’re around the age of 12 based on Çetžak’s observations.

As a side note, these boy servants are named Alik and Žúral. U’il-šanad spoils them a little, to be honest. He’s very fond of them and hopes they will grow up well. The canon story goes briefly into how they ended up with the Ninth Prince, but not in-depth, so I can just outright tell you the two were orphans without spoiling.

That was the more relevant worldbuilding. The interesting but really irrelevant worldbuilding notes start here.

Atnaš’ar, where Çetžak’s from, is a former city-state of the Atnaš tribe. It’s southwest of the Imperial Capital and is one of the main trade connections the Capital has to the south because Atnaš’ar is situated by the coast of Minaž Khaçar, also known as the Sea of Denaštür, Minaž-tal or Denaš-tal. Most of the trade from the east and west both go through the southern route.

The city-state has long since been under the Imperial Clan’s rule and the Atnaš main family — or ruling clan, really — has some distant familial ties with the Imperial Clan, but to someone like Çetžak, who is from a branch of the tribe who barely has any relation to the main family except being from the same tribe, it doesn’t matter at all.

Atnaš’ar is also an important post for the Ažamür Cavalry, because of the trade opportunities. The Cavalry isn’t a stationary army and actually can be divided into several responsibilities. The High General is usually a monarch’s most trusted person because they’re the sole part of the military that is directly commanded by the monarch, aside from the Bodyguards.

As another side note, the Imperial Bodyguards used to be part of the Cavalry and were assigned to protect the monarch by the High General from the elite among the Cavalry. Later they were more or less separated, with the Bodyguards being considered the Emperor’s sedentary elite forces while the Cavalry remained mobile.

The Ažamür Cavalry are in charge of the post stations all over the empire, as well as patrols, especially in areas with a higher risk of conflict, both between foreign parties and the empire, and internally, and either support or suppress depending on the situation. While not actually part of their duties, they collect intelligence and relay messages. They also sometimes handle laying out trade agreements, but it’s mostly when they need to acquire materials for themselves.

A majority of solitary personnel in the Ažamür Cavalry will be away from home for years because they seldom stay in one place long. Even if one is in charge of a post station, one ends up somewhere else after a while. This includes the High General as well, but the High General will also need to stay in the Capital for several months at times if the Emperor asks for that, meaning General Kharanlar will be at home for months on rare occasions. That’s why Çetžak said his šüssad might not be in the Capital in chapter 2. But he’s also very confused in chapter 2, since at 16, until he left the Cavalry, he was always with the High General.

The Amnesia Tonic Chapter 4

Time to Read:

6–9 minutes

U’il-šanad put the unlit handwarmer to the side, next to his leg. It would do him no good to hold it, and no good to bother anyone with it. The tips of his fingers felt cold and rigid, the chill causing them to turn a little pale, but he ignored it. Being slightly uncomfortable was always going to be part of being an idle prince, a paradoxical yet inherent part of his existence he had grown to tolerate.

Closing his eyes, the prince tried to find his centre point once more. Çetžak’s condition had taken him by surprise and he had found himself off-balanced. It caused him to be irritated in addition to the sleep deprivation that already caused his mood to be quite sour. He tapped his forehead with the frame of the silk painting of his fan, pondering thoroughly how to proceed.

Despite thinking this, he still felt his anger over the entire situation and its unfairness simmer beneath the surface, like an evil spirit ready to pounce as soon as something else was brought up as well.

The rocking of the carriage also caused him a lot of discomfort, yet it was still sleep-inducing. He slowly opened his eyes and glanced at the man seated next to him.

That was when he realised Çetžak was watching him, still, his dark eyes fixated on the prince alone.

He took in Çetžak’s unabashed look at him, the man’s eyes as piercing as always. The gaze was unblinking and evidently intrigued about the prince, and what he might be there for. Of course, U’il-šanad couldn’t say he was astonished by the man’s fascination.

A slight smile tugged at the corners of his lips, and his eyes curved somewhat, amusement and the innate trace of playfulness entering his eyes.

When Çetžak had first begun his guard duties at the Northern Residence many years ago, when U’il-šanad had yet to be decreed a prince publicly, the guard had been polite, but curious about the mysterious prince that the Ninthe Blood Prince had been. That had been the two things that struck U’il-šanad the most, his manners stemming from years in the military and his curiosity about the singularity.

So seeing the guard hold a similar fascination once more reminded him of a youth who had just entered the Imperial Capital to take a path different from the High General’s, an elite soldier in the making at the time.

He properly turned to look at the man, and moved closer, keeping the fan between them as he looked over it and up at the man. Çetžak tried to lean away slightly, seemingly a bit startled by the prince’s movement to get closer. But the guard said nothing in protest.

Even if the shortening of distance was not much, it still made the small carriage seem even more constricted, and it felt like Çetžak almost towered over U’il-šanad despite the height difference being less apparent when they both were seated.

“I shall bring you back to my estate. There I shall keep you like a precious treasure that I have collected. You cannot reject my kind offer.”

Çetžak paused for a split second before he gave U’il-šanad a sort of hopeless look that the prince had seen many times in private. “Yes, m’lord,” the guard replied, almost mumbling it. “I shall only agree to your whims.”

U’il-šanad responded with a hum and turned to face forward again, giving Çetžak space once more. The U’il-šanad, it would appear that Çetžak may be catering to his requests out of subconscious routine, and U’il-šanad grappled with a wish to determine how to truly feel about such a situation.

They had a few years between them and Çetžak had many times acted as the elder of the two. This felt natural. If U’il-šanad said he had never wondered what it would be like if Çetžak was younger than him, he would not be entirely truthful, and it was also a lie if he claimed he was not curious to see how this man would act at this time. And yet, the prince’s chest ached. He struggled to maintain a smile.

There were only so many people he could pick to replace Çetžak, and none could fulfil the man’s greatest role. A prince of the empire could only have so many people he dared trust, and U’il-šanad had his reasons to remain vigilant and suspicious of others.

“M’lord?” the trusted bodyguard asked tentatively, voice laced with concern.

U’il-šanad didn’t react at first. It was only when Çetžak repeated himself that U’il-šanad realised the address was toward him. It was incredibly foreign to hear Çetžak call him such, but he said nothing about it, just looked up at the man with a polite smile on his lips.

Çetžak’s brow was ever so slightly furrowed, and his dark eyes were trained on the prince. U’il-šanad felt the pressure against his arm and shoulder as the taller man next to him leaned a little closer, perhaps to see him better in the dim light.

This was the same man who had spent the past few years by U’il-šanad’s side. The prince could clearly see just how concerned the guard was, even if the guard’s expression was mostly under control. This was “his” Çetžak. His trusted bodyguard.

Yet it also wasn’t the same man at all. This wasn’t the man who had seen him grow into his role as prince, nor the man who would softly call him his name intimately when they were alone. It wasn’t the man who would have acted familiar with him.

“Do not mind it, Züčan. There is nothing to concern yourself with,” the prince said, his voice light to match the smile. He averted his eyes, and for a moment they fell on the way Çetžak kept his hands on his knees, polite and rather properly trying to keep some distance in a carriage where they barely fit side by side.

The prince then looked forward, maintaining a polite smile. It wouldn’t do to be too unsightly after all, and he needed to ensure the wrong people did not find out the wrong things either, some of his cousins and brother being rather ruthless people and who he was not fond of in the least.

The interior of the carriage fell into silence, the sharp creaking of the wheels, the quite synchronised steps of the guards, and the dull noise from the hooves of the horses filling the silence.

“Lieutenant Židad reporting…” a voice came through the noise, and a black horse came up to ride next to the carriage.

“Yes?” U’il-šanad acknowledged the bodyguard.

There was a pause, a slightly awkward silence of hesitation, before Židad said, “This Lieutenant reports to Your Royal Highness.”

U’il-šanad could feel the start of his trusted bodyguard at the realisation of the status of the person he shared a carriage with. The prince ignored it and waited for what Židad had to say.

“We will return to Fragrant Breeze Palace in but a short moment,” Židad announced, then awkwardly urged, “Please ensure the health of your royal self has not been negatively affected by this nocturnal journey.”

“There is no need for any concern,” the prince assured the guard. “The distance from the Outer City to the Inner City is not far. I would not succumb to a chill from this short distance.”

Židad was silent for a moment, and U’il-šanad could tell that the man was not sure how to express what was on his mind. Eventually, the Lieutenant simply said, “It is as Your Royal Highness declares. This Lieutenant only hopes that he will not be blamed for any negligence in days to come.”

“No one will blame you, Židad. Attend your other tasks. You needn’t consider me too much, lest I forget what my servants are actually for.”

Židad audibly smiled at the jest. “As you request, Your Royal Highness. I suppose I must allow your attendants to concern themselves with your well-being. I must have forgotten to extend my services to Your Royal Highness’ stables.”

The prince couldn’t help but chuckle as the lieutenant urged his horse forward, surely to announce U’il-šanad’s impending arrival to the palace to make sure the servants were prepared to attend to their master’s needs.

“Your… Royal Highness?” Çetžak asked tentatively.

“No.”

The prince hadn’t intended for the word to come out quite as sharp as it did, and it sounded irrefutably harsh. That was, however, not something U’il-šanad could amend once it was uttered.

A strangled noise escaped from Çetžak’s throat, causing the prince to offer him a sideways glance. The sound would undoubtedly linger in his memory for many moons to come.


The Amnesia Tonic Chapter 3

Time to Read:

9–13 minutes


Outside of the walls of the clinic, in the chill of the hour, was a small crowd of frowns and worried faces. One or two looked familiar, but most of them were faces Çetžak had never seen. To his knowledge, at the very least. 

Likewise, one or two wore green uniforms, while the rest wore civilian robes and looked like they may be passersby who got interested because of the green uniforms. That, of course, wasn’t something Çetžak believed. Having spent years in the Emperor’s mobile elite army, the Ažamür Cavalry as his šüssad’s apprentice, naturally, he could tell a man of the military apart from the commons. The straight, confident posture, the way they carried themselves like they had a sabre at their waist, even when not, the way the tokens were tied to the belt using that specific knot… He could, of course, see all of the small tells of people serving as guards, rather than spies.

None of these soldiers spoke to him, but all of them wanted to have a look at him. He wondered for a second if this was how someone in the entertainment houses felt when mostly men nearly tripped over themselves to have a look at the most popular dancers.

Židad stayed behind for a few moments to ask what could be done about the amnesia, but when the reply was naught of value, he followed Çetžak. As he did, the creaking of wheels and clopping of hooves approached. The group parted to open up the path for a sturdy horse with a brown coat that looked black in the late hour. Speckled in white, it was reminiscent of the night sky when stars shine bright. The carriage was inconspicuous, but the subtly carved wood showed off the wealth of the person owning the carriage.

The carriage came to a halt in front of Çetžak and the curtain of the carriage was raised with a circular fan. The frame in silver and wood caught light from the lantern held by one of the bodyguards, the wood giving off a dull warm reflection, while the silver was sharp and bright. As the light shone into the carriage, Çetžak saw the legs of someone wearing a pair of dark trousers and black leather shoes. The almost-obsidian fabric of the expensive robe had settled on the lap of the passenger. An unused ceramic handwarmer was in the corner of the interior, sitting near the feet of the passenger.

Çetžak looked back at Židad, who merely motioned for him to please board the carriage. Seeing that he intended to do so, Židad placed his fist over his heart and bowed, showing his respect to the Captain Çetžak apparently was.

Without many other options, considering his situation, Çetžak obliged, however unfitting he felt it was that he, who had spent the past the years from age ten on horseback in almost any weather, would be offered anything but a decent horse to ride.

As he moved forward, he placed his hand against the wooden frame to climb in, taking hold of the curtain. The passenger inside withdrew their fan. He raised his gaze out of habit and froze in his action.

The passenger inside may have been dressed in military-styled robes, as extravagant as they may be with the lapel and collar silverwork, but the fan spoke of a different side of the aristocracy. The way the person held the fan to obscure their face partially, with one hand on the foot-long handle and the other supporting the fan itself with a light touch of their finger, showed the elegance and reservation of the high nobility of Zuladiar.

The noble’s eyes shone like gold that reflected sunlight in the shadow of the carriage, as they peered at Çetžak with an unhappy expression over the fan.

Have I done this noble some wrong I know nothing about? he couldn’t help but ask himself, and his hand tightened at the post of the carriage door, the thick fabric of the curtain feeling soft against his calloused hand. What did I do? How do I atone for it?

Even as what he saw was the silk of the fan — painted with a lone branch of an apple tree that had a delicate and beautiful flower, with a butterfly perched near the featured blossom, and one fluttering around but seemingly not ready to land — he inherently seemed to know that this noble was one he found was almost outrageously beautiful. Just seeing their eyes, he could tell he found this person most attractive, in all states; donned in jewellery or in simple garments, with eyes tailed by red or a face left untouched.

When the gently curved eyebrows pulled together, Çetžak couldn’t but help lower his gaze, his heart galloping in his chest and his throat feeling dry.

He knew he couldn’t afford to offend such a wealthy, and important, figure by shamelessly staring for his own enjoyment.

Beyond any expectation, the stranger used the frame of their fan to raise Çetžak’s making the Captain look at his face again, now revealed in its otherworldly beauty. 

“Who, exactly, is so preferable to look at that you avert your eyes?” The noble’s voice was soft but stern. “I sit right here, within your field of vision, so is it that you look away in shame, or do I not compare to a surface one rests one’s feet upon? Or did we all, but you, perhaps, miss that someone is hiding ’neath the carriage, hmm?”

In all his years that he could remember, Çetžak had never experienced a stutter in his breath, no matter the situation. However, now he momentarily forgot how both inhales and exhales functioned and the airflow came out in small spurts. He swallowed.

“Young lord, I can only offer my sincerest apologies. I am, however, quite frankly unaware of with whom I have the benefit of conversing.”

The displeased expression made Çetžak heart’s already feel unsettled as it was, but as it further contorted and the corners of the noble’s mouth were pulled down, he felt his heart lurch. The noble caught himself quickly, and the lips were pulled into a tight line, but the frown between the brows was still more pronounced. Çetžak could have sworn he even noted a hint of hurt in those golden eyes.

The noble retracted his fan and raised it to obscure part of his face before he asked, “You are unaware of who I might be? Then, do you know who you are?”

“Çetžak Züčan, and I hail from Atnaš’ar found at the coast by Minaž Khaçar,” Çetžak replied, his voice steady. “I am of the Atnaš tribe.”

The stranger studied Çetžak over the fan. The sound of hooves and feet moving around the carriage mingled with the quiet breaths of the people in the carriages and the hammering of Çetžak’s heart. The noble shifted slightly in his seat, then motioned slightly with his hand for the soldier to finally enter the carriage . He turned to look into the dark hours of the early morning through the small window, his eyes looking at something distant seen only by this young noble from the empty street of the Outer City.

As Çetžak moved inside, letting the curtain fall, and shadows took over the interior, the noble made another small motion for him to take a seat on the floor without looking at him. Unwilling to offend, Çetžak adhered to the request.

He had yet to discern what his relationship with this young noble might be. The silver identity token was not of much help; it only showed that this person had some kind of position assigned by the Emperor or the court.

The noble used the handle to knock on the side of the carriage wall, still looking out of the small window. The coachman smacked his lips, and with a creak of the wheels, the carriage began rolling over the street, the metal of the wheels crunching against the sand and pebbles below. As the carriage shook, the noble put the fan down to pick up the handwarmer. It was a porcelain vessel that didn’t look as if it had been lit in a while, as there was not even a bit of glow in it. If it had been lit at all, there might at best be some lingering heat, but Çetžak struggled to believe that was the case.

He had a nearly uncontrollable urge to take the vessel out of the noble’s hands and light it up again with a lasting magic flame to ensure this person wouldn’t feel the chill of the night. His fingers twitched in his lap as he watched the noble stroke cup where the coal and flame went, and he had to hold back himself from simply taking this stranger’s handwarmer to heat it up.

“Do you truly not recall me at all?” the noble asked as they took their fan in hand again, raiding the fan like a barrier between the two of them.

It sounded more like the stranger simply spoke a thought aloud, with no expectations of an answer. There seemed to be a sort of defeat to it, as if being forgotten by Çetžak was the greatest loss in this world. Yet the voice was pleasant, and Çetžak got the sense that he would have been able to speak with such a person for hours, if they had just been on equal terms.

The soldier needed a moment to gather his thoughts, then replied, “That could be very possible. If I may ask, did we perchance meet when I was past the age of sixteen?”

The noble gave Çetžak a look. It wasn’t quite sharp, but almost had a hint of teasing in it. “You strolled into my bedchamber at that age,” the noble revealed. “You dare to forget who I am?”

Çetžak’s eyes opened wide, the first outwardly expressed emotion he had shows in a good while, as far as Çetžak knew. He had not expected to hear something so scandalous! Moreover, this young noble had not struck him as the kind that would indulge in those kinds of pleasures. Although, he also couldn’t quite say why he felt this so strongly either.

The stranger raised an eyebrow, but a lingering look of mischief could be seen in his, and the corners of the noble’s mouth ticked up.

“Naturally,” the noble added, “I offered my invitation to you, Çetžak, and you took me upon such an invitation.”

Çetžak was stunned.

Although the revelation was flabbergasting all on its own, what truly hit the man was what he was called. This person called him by his birth name. He could not remember when he last had been called such by anyone.

Yet, it did sound correct in his ears that this person should call him by birth name.

A small sigh, no more than an exhale, brought him back from his thoughts. The noble then patted a pale hand on the cushioned seat.

Çetžak took the stranger upon their invitation with some caution. He tentatively changed from being seated on the rug on the carriage floor to the seat. The carriage wasn’t precisely made for two people and there wasn’t quite enough room with two grown people. However, it wasn’t uncomfortable if they squeezed in a little and sat shoulder to…

The soldier noticed the noble was likely a full head shorter than him and so, although they reached past his shoulder while they were both seated, their shoulder touched his upper arm. Çetžak could help himself and looked at where his robe made contact with the noble’s.

He looked for a couple of moments before he moved his gaze to the noble’s face. They still held their fan, obscuring their face, but from the side where Çetžak sat, he could see the young noble’s profile quite well.

The size of this person, the minimal natural curve of their lips as if they smiled…

What a truly endearing person, the soldier inexplicably thought.



Author’s Notes

I just want to remind you all that Çetžak said there were eight blood princes, while U’il is the Ninth Blood Prince. I want you to keep that in mind.

The Amnesia Tonic Chapter 2

Time to Read:

11–17 minutes

Within the brick wall of a modest clinic in the Outer City, in an area of the lower of commoners of the Imperial Capital lived, a physician studied a young man closely.

This man wore expensive brocade in a pattern of blue and green, with intricate embroidery along the lapel, collar, and shoulders. The robe was closed at the right shoulder using silver fasteners, something only seen among the military nobility in recent years, while the sash had been matched to the vibrant embroidery, while covering the knots at the waist. The belt and wrist guards were in leather and bronze, and the young lord’s forehead was covered by a wide fabric band with a distinct tribal pattern matching the belt’s decorative pattern.

Even at this hour, he showed no fatigue and, though his black hair was wavy, it didn’t look dishevelled. It was secured in a bun with a single hairpin, and although it looked simple at a glance, the bone pin had been carefully carved and embellished with precious metals.

The young man returned the physician’s gaze unrelentingly, his dark eyes deep like night beneath his sharply arched brows that gave the man an unforgivingly cold air to him.

The physician gazed upon this young lord of high status and great importance, studying the man’s face colour. It was a slight tan, a colour that would be looked down upon by nobles, but seen as a good sign in the military. He took the man’s hand and placed two fingers on his pulse point, a light blue glow appearing at his fingertips, pulsing in time with the strong and healthy heartbeat.

The old man ran his fingers through his beard, which gave the physician a wizened look, as he took in what the pulse reading meant.

“Would you mind opening your mouth for me, young lord?” he requested, and the patient obliged by parting his lips. The elderly physician unceremoniously took the man’s tongue and pulled it out as far as it went, studying its colour and sniffing his breath. It was a healthy pink while there were no foul odours.

After this, he let go and his apprentice put a basin beside the physician’s stool and poured water from a large vase over the old man’s hands to rinse them off of any uncleanliness. The apprentice offered a worn but clean towel for the physician to dry his hands on.

“What year is this, young lord?” the elderly physician ask after having dried his hands, once again taking the patient’s wrist in hand, peculiarly tapping a few times on the pulse point.

The patient answered with certainty: “It is the eleventh year of Emperor Šerçian’s reign.”

The apprentice looked at the physician, eyes wide, but he took no notice of the young one, and simply nodded to acknowledge the answer he received.

“The earth energy within the young lord is stable and your heart is pumping the blood of Denaštür with great vigour. Your lungs contain all the energy of the wind that a person may ever need. Your life is not in danger and the young noble can return to his daily life once it’s comfortable. However, your fire energy seems to be confused, and it confuses your mind. That will make even the greatest warrior stumble over a pebble.”

The patient frowned ever so slightly, apparently not entirely unfamiliar with what this could mean, but remained calm.

“What is wrong with this lord’s fire energies?” the apprentice asked curiously.

The young lord extended his other wrist to the curious child, offering it for the apprentice to use for studies. The physician smiled slightly when the apprentice took a step away.

“I have a šüssad myself, and was once an apprentice of the bow and the sabre,” the young lord explained, urging the apprentice without force. “I understand reading energies and pulse is a matter of many years of practise to master the skill. It is better to observe the patients than to have it explained. In the military, our healers train for many more years than even the greatest soldier. It will not hurt to practise with Master Physician’s guidance.”

The physician nodded ever so slightly and guided the apprentice to what to do as the young lord sat with a straight back on the low stool. “Place your fingers as I have shown you before. Do you feel the stability of the energy in his pulse? That is the earth energy of the young lord, creating stability and strength that his body and mind relies on, giving him a calm demeanour, like a mountain. The flow os water lies beneath it, closely intertwined, proving his health is good and his emotions unwavering. Try to feel beyond these two, child.”

As the apprentice tried to read the young noble’s pulse, and quite visibly failing, the elderly physician spoke to the young lord in front of him.

“As I said previously, young lord, but this is still not the eleventh year of the emperor’s reign. The name of the emperor is correct, but it has been several years since His Imperial Majesty was of that age. Does the young noble know how many princes there are in the capital?”

“What an odd question. Eight Prince Rü’ia is the twenty-fourth of the Imperial princes and the emperor is already so old and it’s already so many years since Eight Blood Prince Çelut was born. There would be no more than eight of each kind of Imperial Prince.”

“You truly recall no one else, young lord?” the elderly physician asked.

The patient shook his head. “Other than the provincial princes, there are the Emperor’s brothers, the emperor’s eight sons, and the emperor’s eldest nephew from each brother. There are twenty-four.”

The physician stroked his beard again, considering his words closely before he spoke up once more.

“Young lord, as your mind is confused, I suggest you seek out your elders. If your parents are still alive, then they may be most suited to nurture your lost memories. Elders will guide you u til your memories properly return.”

“If so, what is my life now then,” the patient reasonably asked.

The physician looked at the young lord, whose situation could only be described as undesirable and unfavourable.

“Only Nükiž will know the truths of this matter. I am no shaman, diviner or oracle, and do not speak with the deities, and medicine is not aligned with the Sun. However, may I so boldly suggest that the young lord ask someone you know well? Is there anyone within the Capital to whom I could send word?”

“My šüssad is a general,” the young lord said, only now looking somewhat troubled as his brows pulled together, making him look stern and unyielding. “If I am in the Capital, however, he may not be here as he is frequently away, so I supposed it is his wife who is most familiar with me.”

The elderly physician glanced at the apprentice, who was still trying to read the energies. He turned back to the young lord. “Then shall I send word to the general’s estate? Which general are we speaking of?”

The young lord shook his head. “There is no need to worry about the matter. It is fine, Master Physician. I shall go there myself, if nothing else.”

The physician frowned. “Young lord, I am quite afraid I cannot send you away without confirming you truly know who you are and ensure someone will take care of matters for you.”

“Oh.” The young lord fell quiet, then opened his mouth to speak.

Loud knocking rattled the gate to the clinic. Both physician and patient turned toward the sound, one looking calm, the other frowning.

The young apprentice, however, had quite a fright and jumped back several steps at the first knock. It took a moment to find the mind to head over to the door and open it.

Behind it stood three imposing, uniformed men. They all wore green brocade that looked almost black in the dark hours before dawn. On the fabric covering their chests were the medallion of confronted winged tigers that only the Imperial Bodyguards could wear. The imperial bodyguard standing in front was somewhat shorter than the other two, with his black hair tied back instead of worn in a bun like the typical soldier, but the sabre at his waist made him just as intimidating.

Fearing that trouble may have arrived at their doorstep, the apprentice backed away and bowed without a word, allowing the three highly regarded guards to enter immediately.

The leader of the Imperial Bodyguards stepped inside first. The scent of medicine and dry herbs assaulted his nose, and Židad took in the interior of the humble clinic. It was divided by a fabric to separate the patient area between the shop in front and the unwell asking for help.

His eyes fell on a table to the side near the entrance. The table was made from bricks and a rock surface that had been carefully smoothed out. While the rock didn’t look local, Židad figured it must still have been cheaper than wood. However, it was the items on the table that caught his attention.

One was a familiar silver token that he saw almost every day. He had the fortune that the Captain wished to share guard duties with the bodyguard unit, so he could recognise the identity token of an Imperial Bodyguard Captain with ease. But there was also an accessory next to it. It was a silver, bead and silk string piece of jewellery. The silver was in the image of a flower, a delicately filigreed charm, with beads and gems to decorate the charm and braided string that ended in a tassel.

This was something Captain Züčan wore daily since the prince had personally purchased it at a market stall for the Captain.

“Where did you get those from?” he inquired as he pointed at the items. The child by the door shook his head, unable to answer out of fright. Židad didn’t blame the young apprentice.

The physician stepped out to through the fabric at this time to find what the unknown visitor was looking at. He paused when he saw the three imposing figures of three Imperial Bodyguards. Cautiously, he replied, “Those are from a patient.”

“Is that patient still here?” Židad hurried to ask.

The elderly physician stroked his beard thoughtfully. “Has the young lord committed a crime to be persecuted by someone of your high status?” 

Židad was silent for a moment, studying the old man to determine the purpose of the inquiry, before he replied to the physician’s question. “No, the owner is in the military. We are here to escort him back with us to his abode in the Inner City.”

The physician acknowledged this and couldn’t help but look over his shoulder, but said nothing. However, the young lord had naturally overheard and stepped through the fabric, habitually lowering his head. He looked at the bodyguards, taking in their uniforms.

“That is quite an achievement,” he then commented as he took his things. “Master Physician, I believe I can leave now. These people should be able to confirm my identity.”

The physician hesitated.

Židad saw this, and said with great respect, “Captain Züčan, your arrival is awaited, to ensure you are safe and sound. If you do not have a serious ailment, please come with us. And in the case that you do have an ailment that bothers you greatly, please let us seek the help of a renowned physician who knows the matter in great detail.”

Çetžak nodded, acknowledging this. He attached the token and the accessory to his belt.

The physician had to nod as well, unable to go against the Imperial Bodyguard’s thoughtfulness.

“Then, let us depart.” He took a few steps, but, ultimately, Çetžak paused and looked at the leading military officer, studying his face thoroughly. “I recognise you,” he said. “You are Židad, are you not?”

“Yes?” Židad looked at the physician, then back at the Captain. “May I inquire why you ask, Captain?”

“Oh, it is nothing,” Çetžak replied. “I worried you might be an older relative.”

Židad turned to the physician again for an explanation.

“The young lord has likely consumed an amnesia tonic. He does not remember the past few years.”

Even as his heart lurched, Lieutenant Židad only acknowledged this with a respectful nod and motioned for the Captain to leave first.



Author’s Note

More worldbuilding notes for the interested:

Creating the medical examination of this scene was… interesting. This isn’t the first time I write medical practices in this setting, but I have never had it so extensively featured. I tried to create something that fits the examinations and medical practices I have previously written into the canon story, while trying to expand it and show the ancient influences that would have affected how medicine in Zuladiar works. The Fubaž believe in four deities and divide the world based on four elements, including people’s alignment to elements by birth as well as what their divined name aligns to. Züčan (strength) is earth element, and Židad (darkness) is air element. Nür (sun, light) would be fire. Likewise a person has four elements: fire, water, air and earth. In this case fire refers to Çetžak’s intellectual and cognitive capatabilities (because Nükiž is the deity of knowledge and intelligence), water refers to health and emotions, air his general spirit, and earth to his demeanour and vitality. But there will be more on this later

It was also difficult to try have a humble physician be polite to a highly regarded military officer, who simultaneously is just as polite to the physician. I opted for Çetžak to call the healer “Master Physician” as a sign of respect, while the physicial calls Çetžak “young lord” because he assumes Çetžak is an aristocrat (in this case). In this setting “young master” is used for anyone who is the son of a master of the household, while “young lord” is irrelevant whether someone is the master or the son of the master of a household. Çetžak is significantly younger than the physician, so it’s only polite to say. The apprentice would be rude to call Çetžak “young”.

Wood in this setting is an extremely valuable commodity. It’s generally a very expensive thing to use as a material, especially in larger quantities. U’il-šanad having wooden furniture actually shows his wealth. Wood from lands further away can also be more expensive than both precious gems and precious metals at times.

This is a small detail but not actually irrelevant: silver is the colour/metal of Denaštür, and Denaštür is the deity of leadership. Çetžak’s position is shown with a silver token for a reason. I mentioned last chapter that a Captain is a honoured third rank, but his silver identity token really shows how incredibly important his station within the military actually is; he is the commanding officer of the entire Butterfly Unit of the Imperial Bodyguards and all of U’il-šanad’s bodyguards, and people would be hardpressed to go against his command of this highly specialised unit and is directly under the Commander. A Division General (also third rank) usually doesn’t have a silver token because a General (second rank) essentially has the same commanding power as an Imperial Bodyguard Captain, even if an army (and a division of an army) is larger than the entire bodyguard unit in charge of a single prince’s safety. But like I also said, within the army as a whole, a Captain is still a third rank, with the same level of power as a third rank, even if the material benefits (like salary) are that of a second rank officer (hence the honoured third rank status).


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The Amnesia Tonic Chapter 1

Time to Read:

8–12 minutes

Knocks reverberated through the heavy wooden door, the sound echoing through the halls of the palace of the Ninth Blood Prince. Startled awake, U’il-šanad sat upright in his bed, eyeing the silent door to his bedchamber. Yet, stillness followed, and the prince laid down to rest once more, believing it must have been a mere dream. Closing his eyes, he thought, I have truly had too much on my mind as of late, if even my dreams won’t let me remain idle.

He inhaled deeply, letting the fatigue of the previous day overtake him, and with an exhale, he allowed his body to relax into the warmth of his blankets.

“Your Royal Highness!”

The prince’s lashes fluttered at the muffled call. He opened his eyes once more when the knocks persisted, falling heavy on the wood. With each hammer on the solid surface echoing, he grew more irritable about his disturbed sleep. After several loud bangs, he swept his beloved blanket aside and flung his legs over the edge of the bed ungraciously.

Using the limited light from the glow of the small brazier in the corner of his bedchamber, he felt his way to the racks where he found an outer robe that felt thick enough for some semblance of decency.

Seeing as no one had yet to answer the door to his chambers, it could be naught but an ungodly hour. If Kasrei was not even up yet, then U’il-šanad had surely not even slept for the full hour.

Who has the gall to dare to awaken me at such an absurd hour?! he wondered as he opened left his inner chamber.

As he placed his hand on the handle of the door to his chamber, the chambermaid scrambled out of her adjacent room, holding a lantern in one hand and securing her skirts with a decorated belt using the other. He gave her a glance as he pulled the door open to see the guard dressed in green brocade and with a bronze token at his waist. The dark leather wrist guards were embellished with butterflies, while his chest had a medallion of confronted winged tigers; one the symbol of the Ninth Blood Prince’s bodyguards, the other the proof of the Imperial Bodyguards.

“What’s so urgent at these early hours of the morn?” he asked, his voice laced with the frustration os someone deprived of his greatest pleasure. He looked the bodyguard up and down, taking in the familiar appearance of the bodyguard, and added with further displeasure, bordering on sounding cold, “And why exactly is it you?”

Nür had the mind to look ever so slightly offended by the prince’s obvious dissatisfaction with it being him specifically, but thought the better of commenting on it.

“Your Royal Highness!” the bodyguard repeated urgently in lieu of a proper greeting. “I cannot find the Captain anywhere!”

U’il-šanad’s eyes narrowed suspiciously, as looked at Nür like the man had sprouted a second head. “Did you truly think you would find him in my bedchamber so late at night?” he asked, his voice incredulous.

“No…” Nür hesitantly began, then hurried to add, “But, Your Royal Highness, what I say is that the Captain is nowhere within the walls of your royal self’s palace!”

Now the prince looked at his bodyguard as if he had sprouted yet another three heads. “Züčan does not reside here. He has his own estates. Why would he be here at all?”

Now it was Nür’s turn to look at This Royal Highness in front of him as if he had grown more than one head. Perhaps even a tail or two as well.

Excuse this insolent fool, but if the Captain does not reside within the walls of Fragrant Breeze Palace, why does he only return to his own estates once or twice a moon cycle and remain at the palace the remaining days of the month? Why has Your Royal Highness the Ninth Blood Prince seen fit yo assign a room for the Captain specifically, instead of making him sleep with the rest of us bodyguards?

If Kasrei hadn’t stood behind U’il-šanad and glared fiercely at Nür, perhaps he might have even voiced those thoughts aloud.

“I am aware,” Nür squeezed out, his voice choked.

“Well then, go seek him out at his private abode,” U’il-šanad told him in exasperation.

Nür opened his mouth to speak, but close it as running steps quickly approached.

“Your Royal Highness!” another familiar voice called out.

U’il-šanad looked past Nür to see Židad run through the corridor with a palace guard carrying a lantern, barely keeping up.

“What is it now?” the prince couldn’t help but ask.

Židad instantly stopped in his step and placed his fist over his heart. “My apologies for disturbing Your Royal Highness so late at night, when i am aware that Your Royal Highness’s sacred hours of sleep are from early morning to late midday,” the guard bowed respectfully, his chest heaving up and down, “but I received word that the Captain was taken to a healer somewhere in the Outer City, although I have yet to find out which one. What would Your Royal Highness like—”

“Why even ask?!”

Both of the lieutenants winced at the uncharacteristic way that the prince snapped at Židad. U’il-šanad himself took a deep breath, realising his mistake as well.

“Find out where Züčan is immediately!” he ordered Židad, and then turned to Nür, “Make yourself useful for once and call for an Imperial Physician! One who will not blabber about my estate’s matters to the others.”

“As you command, Your Royal Highness!” the two bodyguards spoke in unison, moving with the haste and discipline that had been instilled by them from the Captain’s strictness and expectancy of immediate action.

Kasrei, understanding her master’s unspoken intention, had already quietly sent a maid to wake up the steward and the prince’s closest attendant. As the Prince returned to his inner chamber, she brought robes better suited for the occasion. She put them to the side as she lit a couple of lanterns more and gathered the prince’s bronze mirror and comb. She wordlessly helped U’il-šanad to remove the robe he had hurriedly put on and quietly began to comb his dishevelled hair, knowing better than to voice her thoughts.

The prince would not be able to rest at ease before he saw that the Captain was well or received what care the man may need to be so.

He quietly wondered how it could have turned out this way. While Çetžak’s bodyguards naturally were not on par with the Imperial Bodyguards that the Captain commanded, they were still not to be underestimated. Yet, despite this fact, now it seemed not even they knew with certainty where exactly the man had disappeared to. Their failure to protect the Captain was as unprecedented as it was alarming.

When U’il-šanad emerged from his chambers, he was clad in a military-styled robe in a dark brocade with silver embroidery along the lapel and the standing collar. His hair had been put up in a simple bun, unlike his usual half-updos, fastened with a silver crown and indigo ribbon. The narrow sleeves of the knee-length robe were tucked in a pair of decorative silver wrist guards and his waist was cinched by a narrow sash and a bronze and glass belt. The earrings were simple hoops in silver with a handful of beads from green gems and bone and the identity token at his waist had been changed to silver to make the prince less inconspicuous as well.

The usual mischievousness in his eyes had dimmed, and his expression looked grim. He seemed nothing akin to the prince who idled his day away with reading poetry or painting. Erian hurried over to U’il-šanad and presented him with a silver and wood-framed fan. The prince took it in hand and studied the painted silk as he grimly asked, “Any word from Nür or Židad yet?”

The bodyguard closest to U’il-šanad shook his head solemnly.



Author’s Note

This story is set in the canonical alternate historical universe, but the plot is not part of Blood of Destinies Rewritten. I wanted to write about Çetžak not remembering U’il and what that means for both of them.

Çetžak Züčan’s name isn’t revealed in the first arc of BoDR, and he’s not Captain in that arc either, so chronologically, this happens an unspecified amount of time after chapter 75 or something like that, but there’s not really anything that would spoil the main plot of the original, so you can read it just fine. without much spoilers offered whatsoever.

I originally always wrote U’il-šanad as Prince U’il, but I started changing that to conlang a while back because I felt it was better. He’s still a prince (šanad), it’s just that when it’s not the title (Ninth Blood Prince) but used with his name, it uses the conlang suffix instead.

Also, for those really into worldbuilding, some additional information for context that isn’t super relevant:

  • A captain in the Imperial Bodyguards is a very high station. Military ranks go from first (such as the High General of the army under the Emperor’s direct orders) to tenth. A Captain in the Imperial Bodyguards is basically two and a half, and it’s called an honoured third rank. That is, third rank with the material benefits and social status of second rank (most army generals), but military power and status of third (like a general of a division in an army). The Commander (and Vice Commander) of the Imperial Bodyguards would be a Captain’s direct superior.
  • U’il in conlang translated to “butterfly” and is his imperial name, not his birth name. An imperal name is given by the Emperor in lieu of a divined name. You can’t have both a divined and an imperial name. He’s the youngest of the Emperor’s 9 children. He’s referred to “Royal Highness” by his own servants and guards for reasons I won’t explain here. You just need to know that his older brothers are never referred to that way, and in official settings U’il generally is referred to “Imperial Highness” as well.
  • Züčan in Çetžak Züčan translated to “strength”, and is his divined name. A divined name is given through divination and is considered a blessing given by the deities. They’re alwas a word with a meaning, and act as a guide to a good fate, sometimes determining what path someone ends up taking in odd ways.
  • Nür translates to “light” or “sun”. Židad means “darkness”. They’re Çetžak’s direct subordinates and only take orders from him, usually. They are the ones who take over if Çetžak’s not on duty and they generally rotate shifts. Židad is older than the Captain, and Nür is younger, and they have different skills and backgrounds.
  • U’il has a chambermaid (Kasrei), not a chamberlain, because U’il has no third-gender servants, and was assigned a chambermaid when he was thirteen. The steward wasn’t named here, but it’s Kakir. Erian is his favoured attendant. Kasrei and Kakir means “to dress lavishly”, and “scroll” (noun) respectively. Erian is a foreign name and has no meaning, because he’s a foreigner.

Haunted Chapter 7 (end)

Time to Read:

11–17 minutes

Çetžak spends the rest of the evening together with Laž’ar. He sits with them on the couch, helping them with their history homework. He may not be too knowledgeable about current events, nor any events in the past several decades, but some history is easier. He can also wake the child up whenever they are beginning to nod off.

Once Laž’ar is finished with their schoolwork, they look at Çetžak with much expectation. Çetžak looks back in confusion until Laž’ar pokes him with his pen.

“Won’t you try the clothes? Just for a little?”

“Oh.” He nods cordially. “Of course.”

Çetžak picks out some garments that feel familiar in some ways, although they are also very foreign to him. While he changes, Laž’ar moves the table and places himself in one of the armchairs to watch.

When Çetžak returns, he’s met with applause.

“You make that look like it’s worth millions! I bet you can pull off anything!”

Çetžak smiles sheepishly at the clearly exaggerated and rather misplaced praise and goes through several more garments as requested by Laž’ar, getting the same positive response.

Eventually, though, Laž’ar’s visible fatigue is too much for the child. Çetžak expected this would happen, but the child held on longer than he thought they would despite bringing him out with them.

Somewhat regretfully, he tells Laž’ar, “I think it’s time for me to leave.”

Barely opening his eyes to look, Laž’ar hums sleepily.

Çetžak can’t simply leave them unconscious while seated when there is a proper bed for them, so he makes sure Laž’ar prepares for bed. Laž’ar follows him to the door, dressed in his nightwear, lids heavy. He leans against the doorframe, seemingly to keep himself standing up.

“Take care, hmm? I’ll see you again tomorrow.”

“I will let nothing hurt me,” he responded with a slight smile.

Laž’ar unexpectedly embraces him. He freezes, not knowing how to react.

He returns it, then steps out. The door closes behind him. He waits for a long time before hearing the click of the lock. Satisfied, Çetžak steps away from the door and in the flickering lights of the hallway, he steps toward the elevator before the lights shut down.

The next day may arrive.


Early in the morning, a woman stumbles into the elevator. She’s in a dress with heels in one hand and a handbag in the other. Once out again, she tiredly approaches her apartment.

The light in the hall is dim and flickers like the bulbs might need changing soon, and she nearly misses a young man in his late teens or early twenties standing there, near her own home.

“Good morning,” he greets her.

“Good morning. You’re up early.”

The youth smiles. “You are awake quite late.”

She smiles a little, mostly self-mockingly, and turns to the door.

The lock clicks as she’s about to put the key in. She expects for a moment that someone is opening the door for her, but nothing happens. She tries it. It’s open.

“How strange…”

“Did your child forget to lock?”

“I… wouldn’t think so. You don’t think it opened by itself, do you?”

The youth thinks before he smiles. “I think that sometimes strange things happen, but there’s nothing to be afraid of.”

She stares at him, sensing something’s off with him. He looks like any other youth dressed in jeans and a loose shirt, even if it’s difficult to see him properly as he’s standing in the shadows and the lights flicker.

She forces a smile, nods goodbye, and enters the apartment. She hurriedly locks the door.


As Laž’ar opens his eyes, the lights in his room flicker to life. He gets out of bed, thinking he’ll have to ask his mother to call an electrician about the broken lights.

He notices there’s a mess outside of his room. He looks around and finds his mother on the couch. She’s fallen asleep sitting up, but at least a blanket is covering her shoulders.

He sighs and picks up all the things she’s left around, including the half-eaten food on the coffee table.

He puts the dishes in the dishwasher, a little curious why his mother would stay up. He is clearly at home, so who was she waiting for?

Making as little sound as possible, he prepares for school and throws his bag over his shoulder. He steps out of the building to find Çetžak waiting outside in the rising sun.

“Good morning! What are you doing here?”

“Happy birthday, Laž’ar.”

With some early rays of sunlight warming up Çetžak’s features, he looks very soft as he takes something out of his pocket. It’s not wrapped, so Laž’ar can instantly see it’s a small box. He takes it and is amazed by how it has an intricate design. It’s quite heavy and definitely not paper.

“Can I open it?”

“Yes, you may open it now.”

He opens the small box. Within, he finds a bracelet. He picks it up and looks at it. It’s rather simple, and the marbled beads in blue are smooth to touch.

Despite clearly seeing it and just as well understanding why he received it, he still asks, “What’s this?”

“A gift. Take it. Wear it.”

Laž’ar happily obliges and puts the bracelet on his wrist. “Thanks, it’s very pretty.”

Çetžak doesn’t say anything for a good while, but Laž’ar senses he wants to say something. Perhaps he’s gathering courage, perhaps it’s difficult to express. Doesn’t matter; Laž’ar had time and patience to wait.

“Would you like me to remain with you?” he finally asks.

Laž’ar chuckles. “Sure! Why not?”

Çetžak raises his hand and strokes Laž’ar’s hair. “Then I will always stay by your side.” He pauses. “Should I walk you to school? As long as the sun doesn’t rise too high, I have time.”

“Okay! Let’s go!”


Back then, his family had been afraid of evil spirits. Most of the various treasures meant to keep them away were useless. Çetžak knew this well.

But there was one item he knew was not a scam from some questionable exorcist. No. There was a beaded necklace his mother used to carry around, even if she seldom wore it properly.

At the time, it had seemed like an eccentric habit to Çetžak, but now he was thankful.

The beads weren’t discoloured but needed some care, so on the night before All Hallow’s Eve, Çetžak took the bracelet apart to clean each individual bead.

The string was too old and rotting away, so, with much care, Çetžak searched the mansion for a suitable string that would last for many decades more. The string he found was far too short for the purpose. He could only carefully choose which beads to add, weigh the beads and string in hand, and consider wrist size so as not to make it too long, short or uncomfortable.

Once done, he had repurposed the treasure his mother had carried into a protective charm for Laž’ar. That Laž’ar’s birthday happened to be close made things easy for him.

He didn’t know when that was, so he decided he’d give it on All Soul’s Day.

And Çetžak didn’t go back on his silent promise. Even if he hesitated a little, perhaps seeing Laž’ar’s mother before giving it away convinced him that this was right.

Now, as Laž’ar walks to school, Çetžak is next to them. From time to time, he glances at Laž’ar’s wrists. It does make him slightly uncomfortable, as if there was an instinctual aversion to the item, yet his wish to stay by Laž’ar’s side is too overpowering.

After all, he wants it so much that it has become his reason to exist. To protect Laž’ar is his sole purpose. He’ll never rest before he knows Laž’ar lives a good life, safe and sound, with no one ever harming them.

But he has claimed his little imp as his. No one will be able to make him leave.

The sun is slowly rising, and Çetžak feels the rays. He wouldn’t call it painful, but rather a discomfort that urges him to remove his presence. He changes sides, walking in the shadow, while Laž’ar can walk in the light.

Laž’ar is very good to him. There is no question why he does this, just acceptance.

As they are about to reach the school grounds, Çetžak stops.

Laž’ar notices and turns to him. “What’s wrong?”

“It is time to go. The sun will rise too much.”

“Oh.”

“But as we have arranged prior, I shall accompany you during your birthday celebration.”

“Please do!”


When Laž’ar gets out of his last class, he’s surprised to see Çetžak standing a short distance away from his classroom. The light’s no good, though, because he looks a little hazy.

Bright lights really are bad for the eyes. Maybe he ought to take after Çetžak and avoid them more. He should also complain to the school someday. But not on his birthday, and definitely not right after he finished his last class for the day.

He wants to go home so he can celebrate with Retnüir, Khanuk, and — of course — Çetžak.

Çetžak has clearly seen him and waves to him, then points in the direction of the door further down the hall. Laž’ar nods. Seeing this, Çetžak turns away from Laž’ar. Laž’ar approaches his locker.

The door down the hall slams shut and a classmate next to Laž’ar jumps in fright.

“Someone just left through the door; what did you get so scared for?”

The classmate looks around. “But who?”

“The guy who was over there?” Laž’ar points where Çetžak had been standing.

Several classmates look in the same direction. Apparently, they all must have been focused on leaving, because no one but Laž’ar had seen him.

Rude.

Annoyed by his classmates’ lack of basic observation skills, he hurries out, ignoring the few calling after him, asking where he’s going and saying they wanted to celebrate with him.

Çetžak stands in the shadows outside, smiling softly at him as he approaches. They need to say nothing, and Çetžak walks him home in silence.

He doesn’t expect Çetžak to say: “I will need to go now, but I will return later.”

“Oh.”

“It’s just that the sun has yet to set. I should not be out wandering so much.”

“Oh, right! You should have gone home already, right?”

“Something in that fashion.”

“Then I won’t hold you up any longer. Come when it’s convenient, okay?”

The hand Çetžak places on his head is ice-cold, but he only strokes Laž’ar’s hair twice before he puts his hand in the coat pocket.

“I shall return before your eyes swiftly,” Çetžak tells him.


Retnüir is already there when Laž’ar gets home. He got out of class earlier than Laž’ar today, so he went straight to Laž’ar’s. Laž’ar’s mother let him in when he arrived, and they made a cake together while waiting for the birthday child.

Retnüir hurries to drag Laž’ar away from the kitchen when he tries to enter. Meanwhile, Laž’ar’s mother puts the gifts and cake away.

Right as Retnüir is about to let go, certain that Laž’ar wouldn’t try to enter the kitchen again, he feels something freezing touch his hand. His eyes instantly turn to Laž’ar’s wrist.

A beaded bracelet.

Not just that, but something that looks positively cursed. He lets go faster than he has time to think.

Where did you get that?!” he exclaims.

Laž’ar’s eyes widen slightly, his smile frozen. He raises his hand and looks at his wrist.

“It was a gift.”

“From who? Take it off!”

Laž’ar pauses. The clock in the sitting room ticks. Half a minute. A minute. Two.

It’s clear he doesn’t want to say anything and wouldn’t listen to reason. Despite feeling that the beads are too cold to touch, Retnüir tries to take the bracelet off. However, the remote on the coffee table crashes into the wall.

Retnüir retracts his hand. It’s definitely a cursed bracelet.

Laž’ar looks at the remote that has fallen onto the floor. Retnüir is very certain the expression on his face holds absolutely no fear and just curiosity.

“Take…” Retnüir swallows. “Laž’ar, take it off.”

“It was a gift,” Laž’ar repeats as he reaches for the remote as if it hadn’t just flown off the table by itself and slammed into the wall. He seems to have the same attitude towards it as he would have if a cat had pushed it off the table. As he places the remote on the table again, he says, “I’ll wear it.”

“I think you should take—”

A vase topples over.

Laž’ar just about catches it. “Damn. Is there a mini earthquake or something?” He puts it back in place. “I want to wear it. Çetžak gave it to me.”

“That guy’s no good. That bracelet’s clearly curs—”

Retnüir clams up when he sees the window handle move upward slowly, almost as if threatening him. When he stays silent, the handle returns to its position.

“It’s probably not an earthquake,” he squeezes out, then tests the waters by adding, “but maybe the building’s haunted?”

Laž’ar laughs. “What the hell, Ret? You really think ghosts are real? You should grow up.”

Before Retnüir has time to scold this reckless kid, the apartment door opens, and Khanuk shouts a greeting. Laž’ar hurries over there, while Retnüir doesn’t know where to go. He’s too frightened to go anywhere.

Thankfully, Khanuk joins him in the living room and he moves closer to him. He refuses to leave his side for the rest of the evening while also pointedly avoiding looking at Laž’ar’s wrist.

He jumps when the lights flicker after Laž’ar makes a joke.

“Khanuk,” he whispers when they’re alone for a moment, “would you believe me if I say this place is haunted?”

Unfortunately, Khanuk has no time to answer, because Laž’ar returns with two glasses of soda.

“Mum said she’ll have to go soon, so we’ll have to eat the cake ourselves.”

“Why can’t we do it now?” Khanuk asks.

“Çetžak hasn’t arrived yet.”

Retnüir takes his glass, feeling annoyed. “Let’s not wait for—”

Çetžak steps into the room as if he just materialised at the mention of his name. “Laž’ar.”

Laž’ar turns around. “Çetžak!” He beams a smile. “When did you arrive?”

“Just now, naturally. Can your mother eat cake with you now?”

“Your timing is perfect, actually!”

Retnüir and Khanuk look at each other. Retnüir sees in Khanuk’s expression they think the same thing: Khanuk had a habit of locking the front door when entering, so they would have known if someone arrived.

They turn to see Çetžak look at them both while Laž’ar’s going to share the good news with his mother. A dark smile plays at his lips as he places a pale finger in front of his blue-tinted lips.

Shhhh.

 

The End.


Author’s Notes

When I wrote this a year ago, I had this wish to make it increasingly creepier and darker as it progressed. Whether I managed, I can’t say. At least it ends darker than it began.

I hope it does, anyway.

I also hope there were enough hints to give away Çetžak’s nature as a ghost. And that he’s a ghost (and not a vampire or something like that).

I also, originally, thought of having something like an epilogue, which would give some insight into what happens next but also some insights into why Çetžak stayed at the mansion. I decided against it. Of course, that leaves this on a very open-ended note, but I hope that doesn’t ruin the end but rather allows people to make up their own ideas about Çetžak never leaving Laž’ar’s side.

I never tire of Laž’ar. You’ll definitely see him again, in a different setting, many times more. Because who said an author can’t write about the same character a thousand times in a thousand different settings?

Haunted Chapter 6

Time to Read:

9–14 minutes

Laž’ar isn’t affected by horror. He’ll jump when there are jump scares, but other than some thrill, he doesn’t feel much.

This year, the films aren’t as mild as the previous ones, and he glances at Retnüir.

Sure enough, his chosen big brother has at some point got his hands on a cushion and now hides behind it, jumping at any sudden noises.

It seems Retnüir’s truly scared of ghosts.

Well, if Retnüir refuses to admit it and continues to push his own luck, what is Laž’ar supposed to do about it? He’s not going to pretend he can’t handle horror. Getting Retnüir to admit it seems like a fun endeavour anyway.

He grabs another slice of pizza. There are also some dishes his mother made before she had to head to work. It should have been enough for more than four people, but Laž’ar doesn’t seem to be able to satisfy his hunger. His friends don’t seem to have noted anything odd, so perhaps he’s overthinking it and just ate poorly earlier. It’s made him so hungry that his appetite is even unaffected by the bloody scenes.

That’s probably it.

A chill seems to run down his spine. He instinctively turns to look at Çetžak. He’s looking at him, the light of the TV casting shadows that make him look inhuman, especially when a red light hits, giving his otherwise black eyes a red, almost demonic tint while his skin somehow looks even paler than usual.

It’s captivating. More so than the films themselves. He wants to reach up to see if this demonic view is real. It’s a silly thought.

“Do you want some?” Laž’ar asks and raises his hand with the slices.

Before Çetžak can answer, a screech from the TV startles Laž’ar. He jumps and nearly drops his food.

He hears a low chuckle, and the chill of Çetžak’s arm envelops him in a reassuring manner.

“Did that frighten you?”

Laž’ar side-eyes him. Çetžak’s constitution must be especially strong because he has shown no signs of getting startled even once. “No,” he tells him.


It’s becoming quite late at night.

Çetžak can see the other three yawn from time to time, and especially Laž’ar does it frequently.

“Will you be able to sleep like this?” he asks them. “Or does this scare you too much?”

Hearing the question, Laž’ar’s eyes narrow into crescents, a smile tugging at their lips as they look at Çetžak. Their expression is full of mischievous intent. It’s the most adorable thing Çetžak has seen. He wants to protect it. Obtain it.

“What if I say I did get scared?” Laž’ar asks softly.

Çetžak freezes, then lowers his head. He focuses on how Laž’ar’s body radiates heat. It’s so comfortable. It has been very long since he could regularly feel any warmth at all. He whispers, “I shall protect you from everything that scares you.”

Laž’ar hums. “And if you scare me, what would you do?”

“What would you want me to do?”

“Nothing in particular,” Laž’ar tells him. “Everyone can be frightening at times. It’s about why you scared me, not that you did.”

“Have I ever frightened you?”

Çetžak can hear Laž’ar’s smile in his reply. “Never.”

All is well, then.

He glances toward Khanuk, who’s giving him a cautious look. It’s no matter that he overheard them, Çetžak determines.


Laž’ar unexpectedly wakes up around six in the morning. He rubs his eyes and looks around, feeling a bit disoriented and very confused.

Retnüir is still hugging a cushion, a frown on his face. He is likely having a nightmare. Khanuk looks completely knocked out, drooling on the armrest he’s leaning his head against.

He gets up. He’s uncertain when he fell asleep, and he’s hazy about what happened before he fell asleep, but he can accept this. It’s not the first time he’s fallen asleep to the genre. Besides, it was a good sleep, despite waking up on the couch, squeezed into it together with Khanuk.

As he’s technically the host, he boils water to make coffee for his friends after a change of clothes.

Khanuk’s, oddly enough, the first one to wake up from the scent of coffee. He comes into the kitchen while stretching. Laž’ar stops taking out ingredients for breakfast to greet him.

“Where’s your friend?”

“He probably went home? He said he could only stay during the evening and still stayed until past midnight, at least. Most likely to something like 2 in the morning. Perhaps he needed to go to school.”

“Laž’ar, that friend… Something’s off about him.”

“He speaks a bit strangely, but that’s it, isn’t it?”

“His clothes didn’t seem that modern.”

“Maybe he likes the look? Besides, he didn’t wear anything that would actually be out of fashion.”

Khanuk fell quiet, then took some bread slices to put in the toaster. Laž’ar studies him apprehensively.

Why would they be so hostile against Çetžak? He’s such a nice guy. A true gentleman, really. Nothing on this planet could change that impression, Laž’ar’s sure.

“When and how did you meet him?”

“Just a while ago. He lives…” Laž’ar hesitates, but likely not long enough for Khanuk to notice, “…in the area of the haunted mansion.”

“That so?”

“Yeah?”

“We only went there like a week ago. How close can you even get in this short time?”

“Khanuk, come on, man! Some people you just click with!”

“And some friends you don’t make. There’s really something off about him.”

“I’m not a kid anymore. I can choose my own friends! Man, you two really ruin the fun, don’t you? First Ret and now you!”

“I’ve had my share of bad friends, Laž’ar. I know when I see someone bad, all right?”

Laž’ar can’t help but feel upset. “I hope you also see the door because I don’t want to see you!”

The lights in the kitchen flicker before the entire apartment is shrouded in darkness. For a moment, Laž’ar stares at Khanuk. He’s about to ask what’s going on when the lights outside go out as well.

Laž’ar gazes as the entire area becomes black, and he can only see the lights further away within the city from the window.

“What, the power went out?” they hear Retnüir ask incredulously from the living room.

“Uh, yeah, seems like it.” Khanuk’s voice sounds a little strained.

Laž’ar laughs. “What a coincidence! I said I didn’t want to see you, and now I can’t.”

That is too funny to him.

Khanuk laughs with him, but it sounds nervous. “That’s a coincidence, all right.”

“Did you watch too many ghost stories? There’s nothing odd about a power outage. Wait a bit — I’ll get some light for you guys.”

Laž’ar touches the counter to find a cabinet where they keep candles. He puts one in a holder and lights it up. He places some tea lights on a dish and puts it on the dining table.

Candle in hand, he goes to get his phone on the coffee table in front of the TV. He leaves the candle for Retnüir in there and uses his phone to light up his path to the bedroom, where he digs out an old torchlight and some batteries.

Finally, he gets another one from his mother’s room and a lantern she kept on a shelf.

He gives Retnüir one of the torches.

“Let’s just have breakfast and head out. There’s no point in staying home if I have no lights or anything.”

Retnüir nods.

“Gotcha!” Khanuk half-shouts from the kitchen.


Laž’ar returns from school in the evening. They take the elevator and approach the door. They seem to be in a good mood, unlike how they felt in the morning.

When Laž’ar takes out the house key, Çetžak steps out of the shadows.

“Are you home now?”

Laž’ar jumps and stares at him with wide eyes over his shoulder.

“Did I startle you?” Çetžak can’t help but ask.

Laž’ar shakes their head, then takes a shaky breath.

“When will I get used to you sneaking up on me all the time?” They laugh. “You really have a knack for giving surprises.”

“My apologies.”

Laž’ar hurries over to him and takes his hand. “Oh, no, don’t worry about it! I think it’s cool. You’re like a ninja or assassin.”

“Not like a ghost?”

“Ah? Did what Ret and Khanuk say get to you? No, you’re not like a ghost if that’s not what you want to be like.” A twinkle appears in Laž’ar’s eyes, and he leans closer. “Would you haunt me if you were a ghost?”

“Yes,” Çetžak says without hesitation. It’s only natural. He wants to always be by Laž’ar’s side.

Laž’ar’s stunned, then laughs helplessly. “You really need more friends.”

No, he doesn’t.

He only needs Laž’ar by his side. He hasn’t been happy in so long, so why would he leave his happiness?

He doesn’t say this. Instead, he takes the key out of Laž’ar’s hand, feeling the warmth of their fingers like a pleasant wave. He puts the key into the lock. With a click, the door’s open, and he holds the door for Laž’ar.

“Thanks,” Laž’ar says cheerily as they enter their home.

“How was school today?”

Laž’ar puts away his bag and turns to Çetžak. “It was all right.”

He studies Çetžak for some time, then speaks again. “Would you like some new clothes? I’m too short, but we can go shopping for clothes.”

Çetžak contemplates this. There is still sun outside, if only a little, so he shakes his head. “Not right now. Perhaps in a little while. Do you wish to eat something first?”

“Sure! Want to eat together? I think there are still some leftovers from last night.”

Çetžak truly hasn’t had any appetite in many years, but seeing Laž’ar’s expression, his heart softens. He can’t help but agree.

He helps Laž’ar set the table, but when Laž’ar asks him to use the magic reheating device, he politely declines. He’s afraid he might break it, and he’s not sure what such a strange invention may cost.

Thus, Laž’ar handles the reheating and places a variety of foreign food on the plates.

He can’t say what it tastes like but he takes in the pure joy radiating from Laž’ar. It warms his cold limbs and makes him want to be closer. To soak in that warmth.

Whatever Laž’ar wants, Laž’ar should get. This person should be treated like royalty, spoiled by everyone like the country’s most beloved child.

But that’s not the case, Çetžak understands. That’s something he has to fix, he determines.


The sun has set by the time they’re finished, and it’s not long before the stores will close, but Laž’ar doesn’t mind. He doesn’t feel like Çetžak needs other clothes. He looks good in what he wears.

However, he also can’t allow anyone to bully him. Especially not his other friends.

He may have told Khanuk that Çetžak might like to wear this, but he feels it’s actually not that Çetžak likes it, as much as it’s the only thing he owns. His parents seem to have a peculiar taste.

Çetžak would likely be happy with whatever Laž’ar got him, so he’ll have to choose carefully. Perhaps some basics today, and then work from there, who knows?

They enter a shopping centre in the centre of the city. It’s one that stays open late and will do. Nothing particularly fancy or unique, but good enough.

“Are you good with jeans?” he asks as they enter a store.

“Yes.”

“Great!”

They go through the store to get to the men’s department, and Laž’ar immediately starts browsing the various designs, sometimes holding a pair of jeans up to determine if they’re good enough.

“What size are you?” he suddenly asks.

Çetžak doesn’t immediately reply. He then points at a pair. “That one.”

Laž’ar’s quiet for a moment, just staring at his friend. “How about we have you try them on to make sure?”

“We have little time, no? It is the size of that one, Laž’ar. I am certain.”

Laž’ar picks the pair up and checks the size. He’s hesitant, but he still chooses to believe that Çetžak somehow just knew. Perhaps he saw it before.

He picks a few pairs, then grabs Çetžak’s wrist. He jolts at first, but after the initial surprise has left him, Çetžak obediently follows along wherever Laž’ar brings him. He lets Laž’ar pick what he wants and only ever points at anything when Laž’ar asks for a size.

Perhaps he’s afraid of germs and doesn’t want to touch anything at the store?

Well, that’s all right.

They’re out within an hour, Laž’ar holding several bags of clothes. Not all are for his stealthy friend. On their way home, he doesn’t make Çetžak carry anything.

And Çetžak doesn’t offer to either.

Haunted Chapter 5

Time to Read:

7–10 minutes

Khanuk’s last lecture is late today. His professor — or whoever schedules these things — just had to schedule the lecture at seven in the evening. On Halloween.

But between a late lecture on Halloween and a scolding that could last just as long, he’d never choose Retnüir’s anger over boredom.

As he steps out of the classroom with forty, fifty other students, he opens up the group chat between him, li’l Laž and Retty. Despite the surrounding noise, he taps the voice message button.

“Guys, I just got out of class. I should be at Laž’s in like twenty minutes, half an hour, something like that. Could one of you order some pizza? I’m famished.”

A minute later, he receives a message back.

Retty: Go eat something first, dumbass.

Khanuk laughs and records a new voice message. “Thanks Retnüir. I knew I could count on you to feed your best friend.”

“You wish. I’m your babysitter,” is the angry response he listens to on the bus. “You better be there within twenty-five minutes.”

Exactly twenty-three minutes later, Khanuk meets up with a terribly annoyed Retnüir, who had come to the bus stop for him. He is carrying two pizzas to share between them and Laž’ar.

Khanuk takes the food off Retnüir’s hands with a grin. “Let’s head to Laž’ar’s. I wanna eat right now.”

“Sure. But you picked nothing too bad, right? Laž’ar’s only fifteen.”

“Don’t worry. I made sure even a seven-year-old would be able to sleep.”

Khanuk sees Retnüir narrow his eyes dangerously.

“…or maybe not seven. But fifteen should be fine. Promise.”

Retnüir huffs. “I doubt it.”

“It’s not like we’ll actually sleep.”

Entirely as expected, Retnüir rolls his eyes.

They reach the apartment complex where Laž’ar lives. Compared to the area where the two of them live, the building looks old and dilapidated, but they understand the circumstances. As far as they know, Laž’ar’s father is apparently married to some other woman, and Laž’ar’s mother has contact with neither him nor her family.

They started this tradition to ensure Laž’ar wouldn’t be lonely because of this, and that many would celebrate Halloween. Meanwhile, Laž’ar’s birthday was just days later, and it wasn’t certain it would be celebrated.

Only last year did they make it a film marathon, though. For the two or three years before that, Retnüir refused with the argument that Laž’ar’s too young, and they also couldn’t just whisk away a kid to go trick-and-treating with him without his mother’s permission.

They take the squeaky elevator to the floor Laž’ar lives on and then approach the door. Khanuk opts for knocking rather than ringing the doorbell. It opens, and Laž’ar smiles brightly at them both.

“Pizza!”

Khanuk laughs and is about to say something when he pauses.

Behind Laž’ar stands someone about their age, pale as death, with lips that might be a hint too purple and eyes catching no light. He’s staring at Khanuk with an empty expression.

A chill runs down his spine when Laž’ar says, “This is Çetžak. He arrived a moment before you did. You must have just missed him riding the elevator, right?”

No, they definitely had not. The elevator door had been open downstairs for them to see when they had entered the building. There was no one there.


For some reason, Khanuk turns a little pale, and he stares at Çetžak with a strange look. Laž’ar turns to him as well.

“Do you know each other?”

Çetžak shakes his head. “‘Tis the first time we meet like this.”

Laž’ar looks at Khanuk in confusion.

“I’m just hungry,” Khanuk squeezes out before he adds some noticeably false enthusiasm. “And Retty bought pizza! Oh, but we only have two.”

Laž’ar smiled. “That’s okay. I have some more food, actually. Besides,” he turns to Çetžak, “you don’t eat pizza, do you?”

“I do not.”

“See? No problems there!”

Khanuk wears an even odder expression, but he pushes Retnüir in through the door and makes a beeline to the kitchen with him.

Laž’ar can only ask Çetžak, “What’s that about?”

Çetžak shakes his head, indicating he doesn’t know.

Laž’ar closes the distance, peering up at him with a mischievous smile. “How could you not know something like this? You’re the reason they seem to avoid me now. Woe me, what am I supposed to do with you?”

Çetžak blinks, then places his hand on Laž’ar’s head, stroking his hair. “You can do whatever you want, Laž’ar. I would never be offended.” The softness in his voice is unmistakable. “But I would never think you would try to offend me, either.”

Laž’ar chuckles. “What are you, really, my guardian angel?”

Çetžak pauses minutely, enough for Laž’ar to notice. The expression also stiffens just as much before softening.

“If that is what you want me to be.”

Laž’ar senses that Çetžak left out something at the end. He doesn’t pursue it or ponder what it could be. Everyone has secrets. Who is he to pry?


What Çetžak doesn’t say is perhaps more his wish, rather than Laž’ar’s. And it’s Laž’ar’s wishes that matter, not his. As long as he can be with Laž’ar, he’ll do anything they want. Anything for this little creature, this beautiful thing, this living being, this wonderful imp.

But the words still linger on his tongue.

For as long as you live, I will let no one ever harm you.

He wishes he could say it. He won’t.

He lets his hand slide down the back of Laž’ar’s head. It rests momentarily at the back of his neck. An urge rises in his heart, but he stifles it, locking it away.

No one could harm his little imp.

He raises his hand again, stroking Laž’ar’s head once more. Then his hand slides to Laž’ar’s upper back. This puts him at ease. He can feel the heartbeats and the blood flowing. As long as Laž’ar is well, everything will be good.

“What are you doing?”

Çetžak stares blankly at the one called Retnüir while letting his hand fall. He already misses the warmth that only someone as lively as Laž’ar would have.

“Is something the matter?” he asks after a moment.

Retnüir narrows his eyes. It makes the chubby boy look like he’s squinting behind his glasses.

He’s obviously not as brilliant as Laž’ar, but he seems to be much more observant of other things. He grabs Laž’ar’s arm and pulls him away from Çetžak.

“Who are you?”

The words could have been like daggers, considering the sharpness with which they are said. It’s more a threat than a question. Çetžak isn’t threatened by it, however. Why would he be?

“Didn’t I say this is Çetžak?” Laž’ar asks, tilting his head, eyes filled with the innocence and naivety of a child.

It’s so very charming.

“He’s another friend of mine,” Laž’ar adds.

Friend?”

“Why else would he be here?”

Retnüir glares at Çetžak. “Go away.”

Çetžak ignores him and looks back at Laž’ar, who looks up at him with arms spread in an “I don’t know what to do with him” gesture.

“Laž’ar has not told me to leave, so I shall stay.”

Letting go of Laž’ar, Retnüir takes a step forward. His jaw is tight, and his fingers quiver.

He’s frightened, Çetžak realises.

The boy makes a movement to grab Çetžak by the collar.

He does approve of protecting Laž’ar. He doesn’t approve of taking Laž’ar away from him. The lights of the sitting room flicker a little as anger rises in his heart. He avoids the hand that freezes for a moment, then smoothly moves to stand next to Laž’ar.

“Ret, you’re overreacting. I can have other friends, you know?”

Retnüir stares at Çetžak, then turns to Laž’ar, speaking in a measured manner, “You need to choose your friends very, very carefully, Laž’ar. You never know who — or what — may latch onto you.”

Çetžak lowers his gaze.

“Now you’re being rude. Damn it, Retnüir. We were going to have fun, and now you’re trying to kick my friend out.”

Retnüir swallows. “Yeah. Fine. Let’s just watch the film. But just so you know, I don’t want to sit anywhere near…”

Retnüir motions toward Çetžak. It’s offensive, but it’s not towards Laž’ar. He also knows this boy wants to protect Laž’ar. That’s fine. Çetžak has his Laž’ar, and Laž’ar isn’t unhappy.

“Come on, can’t you be a little nicer? You’re totally my big bro, I promise, but don’t be this overprotective. Please and thank you.”

“Whatever,” Retnüir spits out.

“What’s going on?”

It’s Khanuk. He also seems to sense something, but he is more considerate, perhaps. Or he is uncertain what to make of Çetžak.

“Ret’s being an arse. Khanuk, do something about it. He’s trying to kick Çetžak out!”

“Retty, don’t be like that. Our li’l Laž is growing up. Let him make new friends. He’s not stupid and can judge people just fine.”

Retnüir doesn’t seem convinced but only lets out an angry grunt before he approaches an armchair and sits down on it as if he’s silently protesting this entire event. Meanwhile, Khanuk places slices of some sort of bread with toppings on them and a tray of glasses filled with some unknown beverages on the low table and sits down on the couch.

He smiles at them. “Come on, now. Are we gonna have this marathon or what?”

Laž’ar shines up. “We are!” He grabs Çetžak’s wrist and pulls him along, sitting down on the sofa. “Besides, I’m starving!”

Çetžak doesn’t mind this Khanuk so much, so he gives him the benefit of sitting on Laž’ar’s other side. Retnüir refuses to look away from him, glaring at him as if he’d simply fade away like that.

Naturally, he can’t just fade away.

Haunted Chapter 4

Time to Read:

9–13 minutes

For the next few days, Laž’ar returns to the so-called haunted mansion to visit Çetžak every evening.

When he returns today, there is light shining from a window on the second floor, and he can vaguely make out a silhouette in the window.

He can’t help but smile.

Most of the mansion isn’t in use, but a housekeeper must come a few times a week to keep the place clean. Çetžak’s parents don’t seem to really care, because Laž’ar hasn’t seen even a hint of them.

Having a busy mother who works nights, it’s not like he doesn’t get it can be hard. So, as long as he’s home before something like four in the morning, his mother would never know he wasn’t at home when he was supposed to.

Even if she found out, she wouldn’t really say anything.

He walks through the iron gate with no reservation, but instead of the main entrance, he walks to a side door. It doesn’t have the lavishness of the main entrance. 

Çetžak showed him it’s faster to get to his living “quarter”, as he called it.

Sometimes Çetžak speaks a bit strangely. This occasional odd phrase, or that word Laž’ar has never heard a living person say before but has read once or twice in literary class.

But that’s all right! Laž’ar understands him, and he figures Çetžak’s parents must be pretty rich, so it might be, like, an… upper-upper class thing?

Çetžak doesn’t seem like some rich brat otherwise, so Laž’ar likes him a lot.

“Good evening.”

Laž’ar jumps and looks behind him. Çetžak stands a few steps away from the door. Where did he come from?!

“Hi, hello, good evening!” Only after he finishes speaking does Laž’ar realise he actually whispered from the scare.

“Did I frighten you?”

“You sneak up on me like that, of course, I’d get a little surprised! Don’t just tip-toe over to say hello behind me while we’re in darkness.”

Çetžak smiles softly and closes the distance. Somewhere deep in the back of his mind, Laž’ar thinks that he should probably feel threatened by Çetžak looming over him like this, yet his far stronger thought is that Çetžak is pretty good-looking.

The moonlight makes his pale skin look almost translucent, and the entire person otherworldly. That’s one-of-a-kind handsomeness you don’t see every day! Laž’ar is certain about this.

“It is almost All Soul’s Day.”

For a moment, Laž’ar can’t keep up. “All souls…? Oh, yes! Halloween! That’s tomorrow!”

“All Soul’s Day is two days after.”

“I see! I didn’t know that. That’s my birthday, by the way!”

“So you were born during Allhallowtide.”

“That seems to be the case?” Laž’ar laughs. “Maybe that means I’d attract ghosts if they were real?”

“Perhaps that could be the case, but who knows?”

“Never mind that. Are you free tomorrow? Ret and Khanuk are coming over for a film marathon.”

“I have no plans.”

“Why don’t you come over?”

Çetžak thinks for a moment, then nods. “If Laž’ar will not be bothered by my presence, please do not mind if I do.”

Laž’ar tsks. “Why would I invite you if I’d get bothered?”

Çetžak raises his hand. It’s cold as it brushes against Laž’ar’s cheek. He pats Laž’ar’s head, stroking his hair in a friendly manner. “Some would be bothered even if they invited me. Especially if they invited me.”

“That’s silly!”

Çetžak retracts his hand and looks toward the gate. “How about we take a walk today?”

Laž’ar nods. His phone shouldn’t shut down at random then.


As the sun sinks below the horizon, Çetžak watches Laž’ar open the gate again. He glances back at the mansion.

He hasn’t left the grounds of his home for so very long. He no longer remembers why, but he had no reason to until now. He also doesn’t want to confine Laž’ar to the mansion, so stepping outside makes sense. Besides, if he no longer knew why he ought to remain, why would he remain in the first place?

Laž’ar must notice his pause because they look at him curiously.

“I made sure the lights were off,” he explained. “They are.”

“Oh! That’s good! You use candles a lot, so it could be bad if you left them burning.”

Çetžak smiles as he steps through the gate and enters the light of the outside. The lamps are blinding, and he raises his hand to shield his eyes.

“These are brighter than candles. Must be annoying going outside in the evening and get blinded every time.”

“I mostly stay at home in the evenings.”

Laž’ar hums. “Do you have a curfew?”

Çetžak needs a moment to think. “I do. But there is time left before then. Do you?”

Laž’ar laughs a little. “Technically, I do. But no one’s at home, so I can stay out past then.”

“Why do you live alone?”

Çetžak feels worried. Laž’ar shouldn’t be alone. He deserves people to care for them and serve them like the child of a monarch.

“I don’t. My mother works nights, so she’s not home until early morning. Nothing stranger than that.”

“I see.”

He’s still not at ease. He says nothing about it.

The two of them go down the street, side by side. Whenever dogs or cats notice them, they bark, whine, or hiss.

This confuses Laž’ar. “I wonder what’s wrong with them.”

“Perhaps they have things to say,” he glares at a dog, which backs off with a whine, “but no one to understand them.”

Laž’ar looks at Çetžak. “Do you have something to say?”

He can’t bear it when Laž’ar looks so genuinely concerned. “I have many things to say, but few are important.”

“Everything you want to say is important. Even if it isn’t to anyone else, it is to me.”

There’s a mischievous look in Laž’ar’s eyes, and he speaks in a flippant manner, but Çetžak can only see the corners of Laž’ar’s mouth moving up without true teasing.

He averts his eyes, tacitly accepting Laž’ar’s words.


Not too far from the mansion, there’s a park. Because Çetžak told Laž’ar to pick their destination, this is where they go.

He thought of something else first, but the dogs barking at them changed his mind. If they had to deal with animals like that, finding a more secluded location would be better.

The light of the park is dim and spooky, without many lamp posts. He believes Çetžak would enjoy this better as he keeps the lights at the mansion dim. Sometimes it’s like the candles are exhausted and wish for a holiday.

So perhaps Çetžak prefers somewhere without the city street lights.

Çetžak looks around. “Is this park new?”

Laž’ar laughs. “If you consider twenty, thirty years new?”

“So not quite, then?”

“No.” Laž’ar’s confused. “Haven’t you been here before?”

“I have not explored the area around the mansion. I can get everything I need there.”

“You should go out more.”

Çetžak looks at Laž’ar with a soft — almost fond — expression. “I will go anywhere you bring me.”

This tickles Laž’ar’s mischievous heart. He needs to tease him.

As he smiles, his eyes turn crescent, his impishness on full display.

“What if I bring you to hell?”

“I would gladly go with you, nonetheless.”

Laž’ar doesn’t expect this response, and he is stunned into silence.

After an awkward silence, he asks tentatively, “What about heaven?”

Çetžak pauses, visibly troubled. “If heaven does not let me in, then I will still follow you, even if it is by force.”

Laž’ar feels there’s something very off with that statement, but he can’t say what part doesn’t feel strange to hear, so he can’t tell what’s wrong.

Perhaps it’s nothing.

They fall into silence after this, mindlessly walking. It’s decorated by the people living nearby. There are a few pumpkins here, some skulls there. Spiders and webs hang off leafless branches, and someone had hung a skeleton up in one. It almost looks like it hung itself.

Laž’ar is startled when he sees this. The skeleton wears clothes, so at first glance, it doesn’t look like another decoration. But when looking closer at it, and daring to touch it, it’s really just plastic.

It’s then he realises Çetžak’s looking at it intensely. Not with fear but something else.

Whatever it is, it doesn’t concern Laž’ar.

They walk for a little over an hour, and they exit at the other end of the park.

Laž’ar sees the flickering light of a vending machine which sells drinks and snacks.

“Wait here!”

He goes over to it, and after thinking for a while, he buys a couple of drinks. Bottles in hand, he returns to Çetžak, who studies him as if he’s the most fascinating thing in the world.

Perhaps he’d been too cooped up, and right now someone friendly who doesn’t think his house is haunted is the most fascinating — what does Laž’ar know?

He motions toward a bench. “How about we go sit there for a while?”

“It is cold. Sitting may not be suitable.”

Laž’ar considers this. “There’s a bridge over the pond. Wanna go there then?”

“If you wish to go there, then I will gladly follow.”

Laž’ar shakes his head with a silent laugh, then walks back to the small bridge together with Çetžak.

He holds up the bottles while leaning against the railing.

“Which one would you want?”

Çetžak studies them both, then points. “This one.”

Laž’ar hands the pumpkin tea-flavoured drink to him, but Çetžak doesn’t take it. After an awkward moment, he places it on the railing next to Çetžak. He now holds a blood-red raspberry-strawberry drink.

He opens it and takes a taste.

Not bad.

He drinks a third of it right away.

It’s strange, but he started feeling incredibly thirsty ever since they left the mansion. Maybe he didn’t drink enough while at home? That must be it.

Feeling better, he asks, “So what do you usually do?”

“Read. Play chess with myself.”

“Oh, so that chess game is yours?”

Çetžak nods. “I rarely have an opponent, so I have grown accustomed to playing by myself. Some of the games take months because I wait between each move.”

“Teach me some time. I won’t be great, but it should be better than playing by yourself, right?”

Çetžak smiles again. Moonlight hits him, illuminating him in a way that makes it look like he might disperse into smoke.

Well, that’s a ridiculous thought.

“If you desire to indulge me in such a way, then I can only humbly accept you as my student.”

“This student humbly requests my teacher not to be too harsh on me. I’m not a strategist.”

“I would never be harsh on you, Laž’ar.” 

Laž’ar empties the bottle and drops it into the bin near the bridge.

“I like spending time with you, you know—” 

He turns back to Çetžak who still stands on the bridge. Perhaps it’s a bit foggy and perhaps Laž’ar’s tired, because Çetžak really does look hazy to him.

He approaches him as he speaks. “It’s getting a little late. I should go home.”

Çetžak nods. “That sounds good. I will walk you to where we need to part.”

Laž’ar notices Çetžak hasn’t touched the drink. No matter. He bought it without considering what Çetžak might like. He takes the bottle, receiving an apologetic smile from Çetžak in return.

“All right.” Laž’ar smiles. “Let’s go.”


They’re not far from the mansion, but the route back is a little longer. Çetžak follows Laž’ar anywhere he goes — until they stop.

“My bus stop’s over there,” they point forward, “the mansion’s that way.” They point to the right now.

Çetžak nods.

“So we’ll have to split here, but we’ll see each other tomorrow.”

He doesn’t want to leave Laž’ar. Not now. Not anytime.

Why should he go back? What’s there to see, when Laž’ar gives him so much more, even during brief moments?

Çetžak nods once more. “Of course.”

Laž’ar smiles brightly. “And on my birthday!”

Çetžak nods yet again. “Naturally.”

“Great! I’ll see you then. Bye!”

Çetžak watches Laž’ar as they wave to him, then turn. They hurry away, not turning again.

Çetžak doesn’t look away once.

He doesn’t want Laž’ar to leave.

Çetžak doesn’t want to leave Laž’ar.

He doesn’t want to.

He doesn’t.