Time to Read:
I skipped the whole winter, but hey, here I am!
To be honest, I get sick so easily that even as I’m writing this, I’ve still got a runny nose, a cough, a sore throat, a headache, and bone-deep exhaustion. It’s hardly any different from back when I wrote my goals for the year over 3 months ago. So if I sound a bit loopy, it’s because I still haven’t fully recovered. I think I’m getting there though.
Before I start for real, though, let me just suggest you donate. More about that in the Behind the Scenes section.
WIPs
Last month, I got a comment here on the site. I replied back then, but I want to take a moment to reflect on it. It’s not to stir the pot or start drama. I essentially wrote the below at the time as well, but more focused on the post itself that got the comment. This, I suppose, is a bit more general.
First of all, I like people commenting. I enjoy discussion. I think people disagreeing with me or having different interpretations of what I consume is fun! Getting my interpretation challenged isn’t a bad thing. I very much welcome it, especially if it helps generate a dialogue. This also applies to criticism, as long as it’s constructive. Fiction — and reviews of it — will never benefit from echo chambers. It’s instead unhealthy and critical thinking withers quickly when there’s no discussion of viewpoints.
Besides, I don’t expect anyone to like the exact same things as I do, nor do I believe my opinion is superior. It’s in fact very likely people don’t like some parts that I do, or they might like the same type of content I do, but only partially. Maybe we like the same type of otome games, but have wildly different opinions on what light-novels featuring otome games are good, or we like different types of romanceable men, but enjoy the same types of plotlines. All this should be common sense, but common sense is only limitedly common, so I guess I have to say this part out loud (as I have certainly done before, but it’s been a while).
However, when a comment’s message boils down to, “I don’t like this review, because other people dislike this genre” while sort of putting the blame on me by telling me to, “do better”, it’s not constructive nor does it open a discussion. It’s not productive and doesn’t even engage with the content I actually create. It’s just finger-wagging. If I wanted that, I’d go ask my aunt about religion.
I decided to reply to it at the time, because I am, as I have always been, open about the fact that I am a human being. This is really stating the obvious, but… Here we are. I have human emotions and hence, regardless of what others may claim, I have biases. Everyone does.
Truth is, that means I cater to a certain group of people — those who enjoy the same things wholly or partially — while offering a singular opinion based on my interpretation of the content I review.
I have more than once been open about the fact that, when it comes to romance, I prefer there being at least one male or masc-identifying character in the dynamic. This is why my preferences will always lean toward heteroromantic media, Boys Love and MLM. Thus, this is also the target audience I have.
This isn’t a place primarily for people interested in all queer media, nor for people only interested in queer media. That’s not my lane.
Do I hate Girls Love, baihe or WLW because I like BL more? No. That’s like telling me I hate tofu because I can’t stand peanuts. Sure, they’re both legumes but I can still dislike peanuts because I can’t stand the smell, and like soy-based products. And honestly, I can’t handle all soy-based products because they make me feel ill — that’s on my body, not the soy beans or the way they’ve been processed. Likewise, I’m not going to pretend I like GL the same way I like BL or just as much. And I don’t even like all BL equally. I lean dark and gritty, or swing entirely in the opposite direction and go for romcom, and even then it’s as a subplot. I’m not a romance person; that’s just how I’m wired.
So saying that “this is GL, so don’t read it if you’re uncomfortable with that” isn’t “disdain”. It’s a courtesy. Especially if my blurb or the cover is ambiguous. People aren’t going to read the tags a lot of the time. If they did, I wouldn’t even need to write the title of what I was reviewing! Just, you know, read the tags! But that’s just an inconvenience for everyone. In the end, I’m not gatekeeping, just making things clear.
Let’s be real for a moment: not everyone is comfortable with every sort of pairing. Comfort zones are a thing in the content we consume, and this absolutely applies to GL, BL, het, kink, poly, or whatever else you may like. And that’s okay. Not being comfortable consuming certain content is not the same as being uncomfortable with it in real life. You shouldn’t conflate the two, because it would be really weird if someone immersed themself in another person’s love life in real life, the same way they can immerse themself in a character and their love life. Like, it would be incredibly creepy to do the former — the latter is healthy normal behaviour.
So, if the argument is “if you like BL, you have to like GL” or anything along those lines, then the argument can just as well be “if you like sweet romance, you must like dark romance” or “if you like human romance, you got to like monster erotica” but they’re all nonsense arguments. People can like their eggs scrambled, boiled, sunny-side up, every way, or not at all. And that… is all fine and perfectly valid.
As I see it, this shows an issue that’s further widespread, though. It’s a combination of not thinking critically, of dehumanising content creators, a steady nosedive in media literacy, people not acknowledging their own biases, feeling a need to hate on people with differing opinions, and people trying to either create drama or not knowing how criticism should be made. I can’t increase media literacy, but I think it should be obvious enough that I don’t expect people to think the same way I do. I literally acknowledge that people like The Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System in my reviews of the books, and say in my review of the fourth one that I understand why people like it, but I still hate it passionately.
Anyway, this was just a really long build-up to say I’ve been working on a new Q&A page. I already planned on making a new one — the current version is nearly a decade old. It was just bumped up to a high-priority spot on my to-do list. I hope to publish it soon. I still want to check through the old one for any reusable questions, but the new format will be more compact and reader-friendly — like my Terminology page, with toggle sections for each Q&A.
Now, how do I smoothly move on to my other sort of work… eh… I don’t think there’s a smooth way to move to the next item on my list. So I won’t even try.
Aside from the Q&A, I’ve also been writing. I have three things I’ve worked on recently.
One is another Blood of Destinies Rewritten author fic. It’s set in the canon setting, but is, naturally, not canon. I have also read through two of my canon divergent ones and want to post them soon. I haven’t worked on The Amnesia Tonic though. Oops? I guess the tonic is fermenting.
The next one to bring up is I Summoned a Demon, who Made Me Sign a Contract, which is my omegaverse one. I have been editing chapter 1, trying to trim it down a bit. I’m almost done, at the time of writing and may have moved onto chapter 2 by the time this posts.
I have also worked on more chapters for it and have worked on what I realised will be a second arc. I realised recently that what I had written was really mostly arc 1. Should have been sort of obvious to me, but apparently not??
And finally.
Remember I would only write one omegaverse story? Ah, well… about that. I started writing a werewolf one set in the same setting as above, just a wholly different part of that world. I’m currently posting it on AO3. Tear My Heart Gently is just a lot of hurt. Total emotional carnage. I mean, it’ll get better, but it’s definitely one of those where it only gets worse before it can get better. I’m enjoying destroying Yuriy’s life.
I have also created a few other things since October: I have an idea for a third one in the above setting and it’s dark, I have written on a somewhat silly little story involving a buff flower shop keeper and a demon, and of course I’ve also written the flash fic the refrigerator.
WIP Quote
“How primitive,” I commented, looking at the spells, interrupting Jasper, who had gone off on some tangent about calligraphy used in “medieval” times.
“…”
Jasper stared at me for a long time, allowing me to gaze back at him.
He really had many features akin to elves, but his violet eyes weren’t. Where they came from, I had no idea — he said his mother had green eyes, but presuming it was from his father’s side was silly. If direct lineage mattered so much, I wouldn’t have black hair.
“Calligraphy isn’t primitive,” Jasper eventually said.
“Cheap little stone, I meant these incantations. Never speak any of them ever. With how your spell circle work looked, you would kill someone and yourself in the process of heating a cup of tea.”
“There were spells in here for heating tea??”
“No. Obviously not.”
Jasper gave me a helpless look before he asked, “Okay, so why do you call these primitive?”
I got my phone out and opened my app with stored spell circles. I lifted one out and let it hang vertically in the air.
“This is a commercial spell. Anyone can use it as is.”
“Your world sells spells?”
“What exactly is the difference between selling a spell book and a spell circle for everyone to use?” I fired back.
“Fair.” Jasper looked at the spell spinning in the air. “So what does this do?”
“Heat water,” I said simply. “‘Tis very useful and stands on its own. Once activated, it will only do a limited amount of heat while it also has a large margin of error, so even if someone copies it slightly off-centre it will not kill anyone. Though with your specific type of lopsided circles, I daresay ‘tis still a death trap.”
“Ah… You mean I’d set the house on fire.” Jasper nodded.
From chapter “Orion 12” of I Summoned a Demon, Who Made Me Sign a Contract
Behind the Scenes
It’s that time of year. You know the one — annual site bills coming up. They aren’t due to the same month, but I pay both in May, usually. One is for the domain, the other is for WordPress’ Starter plan. I remember when that was called a Personal plan, but they added a new tier and called that Personal. I feel like I honestly lost some features, but I don’t quite remember. Lovely. Not.
I talked about it last year with my husband, agonising about the fact that I need some of the features on the next tier, or at least that I can pay for individually, but I wasn’t sure then if I could cover the expenses for the domain and the plan back then, and I don’t know now either. I rely on the money kind people donate to keep the site ad free and for the domain — and, honestly, to have any newly released review material too.
So, if you have a spare couple of Euro, I’d be eternally thankful if you donate them through PayPal or Ko-fi.
You can give a comment if you want to see more of something, and I’ll try to prioritise that. It can be what you might want to see me review, or it can be wanting to see more of my creative writing or encourage me to post my art portfolio already (that’s long overdue, I know). I don’t take requests, but I do take recommendations.
This applies to anyone, not just donors. You can tag me on Twitter or Bluesky to ask if I plan on reading/watching/playing a title or recommend I do. If you have a service you want me to review, feel free to let me know about that as well!
Other than agony over the upcoming site bills, I am also agonising over the World Anvil one. It’s also this summer. April through August is probably just deep financial anxiety and agony for me every year.
Additionally, me and my husband are looking for a place to move to. We’ve done this for a while now, and the plan was really to move this year, but his university messed with him so he can’t graduate this spring. Next year, fingers crossed.
And when this post goes up, it’s Easter Break, so I’m not entirely free, but hey, I’m trying to get things done anyway.
Currently…
Reading
- Thriller Tour Group (JJWXC)
- Kai-hen Wizards (VIZ Manga)
- Dawning Vol. 2
- Case File Compendium Vol. 1
- Case File Compendium (JJWXC)
- The Husky and His White Cat Shizun Vol. 1
- Remnants of Filth Vol. 1
- Case Files of Jeweler Richard Vol. 1
- Hello, I am a Witch and My Crush Wants Me to Make a Love Potion Vol. 1
- Magi (VIZ Manga)
- My Special One (VIZ Manga)
- Komi Can’t Communicate (VIZ Manga)
- Heaven Official’s Blessing Vol. 1 (Re-read)
- Golden Terrace Vol. 2 (Re-read)
- A lot of fan translations
- No webcomics
Watching
- Ouran High School Host Club
- Tiger and Bunny
- Dead Boy Detectives
- Ojamajo Doremi
- Wonderful Precure!
Playing
- The Sims 4
- Tales of Zestiria
- Persona 5
- DRAMAtical Murder
- Boyfriend Dungeon
Recently dropped
N/A
Recently finished
- Dawning Vol. 1
